sewn together

hey, this is my blog. my names spider, or ryan, either are fine. my pronouns are strictly he/him, and im 18. i enjoy writing and consuming dead dove content.

i write for mcr, fob, p!atd, and related decaydance members.

this is my sideblog, so if i decide to follow back it’ll be from my main account, sorry. writing, and this account, is a very casual hobby of mine, i write for asks i find interesting or for ideas i want to post — if i don’t like your ask, i will simply delete it. it’s not personal. try again later.

my asks are perpetually open, either for drabbles or just interactions. i love talking to you guys.

this account is mostly, but not strictly dead dove and all that encompasses it. you’re responsible for the content you consume. mdni. i will block you.

ill write just about anything. i don’t have hard limits. though, again, if im put off by your ask i will delete it.

note: tags for members are marked accordingly. ex: gerard way —> #gw. other tags are self explanatory, but #spider is demented consists of my personal writing and thoughts.

pete having to listen to ryan drone on and on about childish drama between ryan and some kid on livejournal who thinks brand new sucks. literally just being like 'let me hit dude.' but he cant say that cause ryans so cute and has no one else to talk to :((( so pete pretends to be interested until he cant fake it anymore and makes out with him.. only works temporarily though cause ryan is seemingly addicted to talking :P

he would get so pissed at ryan for being such a whiny bitch when they fight. hes always acting like a complete drama queen and threatening to use the ever growing mountain of blackmail against pete.. but ultimately, he has to concede, if pete admitted that ryans so childish it would just prove how fucked up this whole thing is :((((

brendon bringing you to a party and accidentally lost track of you. good thing his bestfriend ryan is around to keep you company! he’s so sweet, letting you take few sips from his beer even though brendon said you weren’t allowed to drink anything at the party..

older ryro convincing you to go upstairs because it’s too loud, clearly you didn’t have much time to think about it. he’s your bigbro’s best friend! you could trust him, brendon does and ryan is basically another brother of yours!

the thought of him groping you and pushing you into a room… raping you on the bed while he calls brendon to tell him that hes already taking you back home :(

oohhthis is.yeah.this is ryan ross in his true form.

ryan taking advantage of how sweet and trusting you are. and maybe the fact that you drool like an idiot everytime you look at him. everyone else thinks its cute, just a younger kid having an endearing crush on someone they look up to. ryan thinks its more.

he pulls you away from the crowded hallways and upstairs, finding an empty room to spend time with just you. ryan would say that he doesnt care about talking to anyone else here, that they're all lame and no ones as interesting as you are - sweeping you off your feet.

you talk his ear off about school, and other kids your age, while ryan pretends to be interested, humming vaguely and nodding while rubbing your thigh.

it wouldnt take much convincing before hes on top of you, telling you that he just wants to kiss you cause youre so pretty!! and ryan really did wanna mean it, but unfortunately, he just gets too bored for his own good.

ryan kissing your neck while trying to pull your pants down, putting his body weight on you when you try to laugh and squirm away. you squeak when your jeans are at your thighs, and it doesnt feel very funny anymore.

you kick your feet while he tries to pull down your underwear too, punching at his chest, but ryan just coos at you, telling you to be quiet, that he knows you want this like he does.

this is really hot.like wow.wow.your mind anon...

ryan is convinced hes ready to settle down.he's got the money,and the need to devote himself to someone.sure works a little slow,and maybe he's drowning his ever dwindling success with moutains of coke.. but that doesnt mean he cant be a good husband.

he only sees one problem in his mind - you. you're the one resisting settling down with him. always trying to convince him to go out more, and spending his money like you earned it.

all ryan wants is a sweet, picture perfect family. why are you insisting on acting out like a juvenile whore :(

ryan throwing borderline tantrums everytime you try and go out with your friends, moping around the house while you get ready, slamming cabinets and doors. you walk out ready to go, just to see him messing with his nose and sniffing wildly.

"you're really gonna go out in that?" he mutters, scratching his neck as he moves closer to the door. "are any guys going with you?" ryan asks, but his questions seem to always sound like accusations.

you explain that you're only going out with your pre-approved friends, but it doesnt soothe ryans worries, looking at you with eyes welling up with tears. "you never want to just be with me. im not enough for you. why dont you spend time with me.." ryan whines, pushing you off of him when you try to console him.

ryan knows how to get his way by now. if he whittles you down enough, you'll give into his tears and stay inside with him. you'll become a homebody just like him, spending your days snorting lines and smoking with the curtains drawn. ryans losing networking fast with his absence, you can afford to lose a few friends.

i neve really asked you anything before but ive been following your stuff for a long time now honestly,,,

you haven't been active much as late and i don't know. i wanted to see if wverything was going okay. and if you were maybe to start writing again, maybe some new pete stuff (or anything$) if you feel okay to because honestly i font think you understand how impactfukq your work has been on pw tumblr.......and honestly ur work in bandoms in general idk you always write some bomb ass shit and im js tryna say i miss u af as fuck . i always find myself scrolling this blog again and again because DAMN you write Dope.

i have some ideas about things and i don't have the balls to give anyone else reqs cuz i know they won't get the vision like you would. is that crazy? Whatever fuck it,, but uea. if you're okay to write again then i will fill you up and also your ask box. wink wink.

hope erbrutjing is ok. Sorry for shit spelling. on the subway. Xxo

-🧁

this made my whole day,you can’t see me but i’m smiling very wide.

i know i haven’t been very active,i guess it’s just because i got a bit nervous that im not a very good writer,and that people didn’t like my stuff,but this gave me such a nice confidence boost :)

i definitely want to be more active and have been trying to be, unfortunately i just lack motivation a lot of the time but i am trying more!!!

if you have ideas you don’t want to send on anon or have posted, you can always send me a dm!! or we can talk on discord if that’s easier!!

- yours truly 💌

ive written something like this before but i love it bad so i will expand on my thoughts,,

i genuinely think pre-signed ryan ross would do anything pete asked. pete says jump and ryan says how high. you're so infatuated with him but unfortunately, the idiot cant seem to notice you over the million dollar man infront of him. so, you indulge in his pete wentz fetish, just to get some semblance of attention from ryan.

you never thought it would esclate to this, though.

it just started with letting you tag along to the studios while ryan and pete watch brendon record under the cork vocals. but, when pete found out there was another starstruck, barely legal teen in his vicinity, he jumped on the opportunity it brang.

he invited you back to his place with ryan, for a impromptu writing session - burst of creativity, he explains, best not to waste it. you know you should be hesitant, a stranger almost ten years your senior inviting you back to his place; but for some reason, your body lacked that buzz of anxiety.

what is there to fear? pete cant be a creep, hes famous! and plus, ryan adores him, and you trust his judgment.

there wasnt a lot of time between scribbling in notebooks and shoving pills down your throat - even less time before you were shoved onto what you assumed to be petes bed.

your head feels a million times its weight, and your limbs feel like your tied down with sandbags; completely stuck.

"come here, ry. look." pete instructs, and after a few moments you finally register the fingers in your cunt. "i think she likes us, ry." pete hums, rubbing the wetness off of his fingers onto your inner thigh.

you watch through what feels like slow motion as pete gets ontop of you, his words all too mumbly and hushed to make out - like he only wants ryan to understand what he's doing to you.

ryan kneels at the side of the bed, beginning to hold your hand when pete forces himself inside you, grabbing your jaw tightly when you screech at an earsplitting level.

"'s okay," ryan tries to explain, "'s just pete, and me."

you lay there with fat tears rolling down your heated cheeks, gripping ryans hand tighter and whimpering his name as pete continues to drill you.

this is so good especially cause ive had such bad pete brainrot currently.but honestly when do i not..feed me more pete asks please..

pete being your only friend, the only one who understands everything thats going on with you. no one else will even talk to you, let alone listen. pete's the breath of fresh air that you've been dying for.

though, of course his kindness doesnt come without a price. afterall, he's a famous, god-like figure and youre just a lame kid online; you have to make his time worth it.

pete would stalk every inch of your social media, collecting your friends and familys contact information. everytime you two argue, he'll threaten to show them all the gross things you've said or sent for his approval :((

maybe he would ship you gross fetish gear that he makes you film and chant his name in, humilating yourself further, digging your own grave with a gentle push in the right direction.

sometimes you breakdown and wonder if it would be better to just let the truth out. maybe pete would be brought to justice, your parents could take action and understand that you were just an impressionable kid..

but when you see pete send a screenshot of you refering to him as your 'daddy', with a message attached reading 'i guess ill have to show this to your mom and dad ):," you quickly change your tune, removing the screen of your window to sneak out and get into pete's car.

i mean who else is gonna take care of you? your real dad is an utter dead beat with the shortest fuse imaginable, and your mom is no where to be seen.

you're completely reliant on ryan - and he loathes you for it.

you are seriously the best writer ever you are so good with your words and the way you write stuff just feels so much more authentic compared to what you’d usually see in fanfic and i absolutely LOVE IT !!! #favblawgger

KEEP IT UP BIG DAWG YOURE AWESOME !!!!!!

Xxoo

this is so very sweet and extremely lovely, trust me i could never be annoyed by you :)

that means so much to me, i really try to write as well as i can and work hard on making it not so stiff. im really glad my efforts are coming across well

this summer im definitely going to get back into writing daily :) so look out for that, im so lucky to be your favorite blogger!! <333