hayl ✋

im lazy & drunk and need to shedtwt rn but dont wanna get banned for posting myself on passgen or something so

friday fit

plus my lunch from earlier finished, bacon flavour super noodles & chips

I want to kiss it, lick it, bite it and blow strawberries on your stomach.

fell asleep before i could post these last night but yeah

basically changing my rotting pattern slightly in now im only changing into my faded falling apart pyjamas when its late and im tired now and wear sweatpants and hoodies & socks during the day like a civilised person

i know a lot of guys hate them & the idea of using them i understand why but personally i never thought of them as fembrained or lesbian coded desu

i mean ig the user isn’t getting any pleasure physically, which i find kinda awkward in theory because just feels unfair & selfish, but still using one is penetrating which itself is a masculine act regardless of how anyone tries to reason it not being, and if anything it’s more degrading to the one getting penetrated and ultimately in submissive role, honestly really not that much difference from using a actual dick just he can’t feel it which sucks, but idk i think wanting to dominate & penetrate someone at all even with an object is more masculine than it is feminine/fembrained

i seemingly have that effect on people for some reason

assuming you know where i live you’ll probably need a gun this place is a shithole

You seem a bit better than last time, or at least I hope you are.

depends definition of better

im still depressed & dysphoric but not as bad on the level of severe emotional mental breakdowns and crippling self hatred and shame anymore, it’s more controlled now, or at least more numb

not as perpetually suicidal, i cut my wrists a few days ago & spent 2 days in bed not really moving just watching river monsters and river documentaries, but not that severe, one off for most part havent done anything like it in a while

im still unhappy but im not as emotionally volatile as i was, dunno if that would please the people who hated me & thought i should be completely socially alienated and cut off from society as a monster years ago pleased because im still not a happy ray of sunshine but who knows

when i feel bad about myself, so like always?

>multiple people on twitter (terfs, other trannies, cis moids, theyfabs)

>many trannies & poons & chasers over different tttt discord servers, my favourite was honky saying i ‘look like a really really ugly woman instead of a crossdresser’ (i still really like honky platonically so don’t hold that against him) oh and other mtf reppers occasionally

>many anons on here multiple times

Long hair + baseball cap is a cute lool

thanks