lovely things & little reminders

Poets are always taking the weather so personally. They’re always sticking their emotions in things that have no emotions.

I figured out how to stop loving someone you’re not supposed to love anymore. I know it sounds impossible but trust me, we’ve done it before. I told my first love that I’d love him forever, but I don’t anymore. He has a spot in my heart- just like my dog and my best friends and a teacher that changed my life- but I don’t love him anymore because that was a different person who was with him and I’m not her anymore. And one day, we’ll no longer love the people we love now, we just have to wait for ourselves to change again. And we try to speed it up by starting new hobbies, getting haircuts, moving, learning a new language. Anything. Because the sad truth is we know we need to shed part of ourselves to fall out of love. And that sucks but it’s necessary.

Maybe I should have learned my lesson by now but I know I’m going to keep walking out on people I shouldn’t and I know I’m going to keep trusting people that will hurt me and oversharing with people that don’t care and not looking out for people that need me. But I’m trying and I’m learning and I’m changing a little bit every day and all I can hope is that one day I’ll forgive myself so that I can start forgiving other people.