he didn't know you at all

something about the first handprint being seared onto dean’s skin, hidden by layers of clothes unseen, questioning vs the bloody handprint being on his jacket, for all to see, answering

LAMP? pizza man montage? the truth? despair. standing 1 inch away? standing 2 feet away? he's crying. he's not crying. he loves him! he loves him? homerotic confession of love? no homo confession of love? taken out of the episode lineup? onion field??? two weeks of cas baiting? tackle cas like a football tackle? jensen and misha not in the goodbye video? scream cas so loud it can be heard blocks away? 15x18 ADR session? fakeout phone call??? jenny the vampire?? rusty nail???? party city wig. misha in canada? misha not in canada??? no cast covid quarantine??? car rapture??? cas helped?? roadhouse heaven ending?? jimmy novak?? kansas dead??? no cas? don't talk about it.

i find it comforting that this site will never go without destiel posting like even at its more quiet there is always some brave soldier fighting the good fight like damn we really do got destiel forever

It’s funny in fanfiction when sam is blithely teasing dean about the pronunciation of destiel and dean is like. White knuckle grip car door. And then sam starts talking about SASTIEL and Dean goes. OKAY ALRIGHT enough. Shut the fuck up. His stance on the issues. Sastiel: bad and wrong!

Another classic how do I know Dean is in love with cas because sam isn’t. Sam hears about supernatural the musical and is like oh okay. Interesting. Interesting what they’ve done with the place (our lives). And why don’t people ship ME en masse with our buddy. What if I wanted to be shipped en masse with our buddy. But dean winchester. Is crashing the fuck out. Shut the fuck up don’t talk about you and cas being together. Shut the fuck up don’t talk about me and cas being together. Why don’t we all shut the fuck up and maybe we’ll be happier. Which. Imo a more intense echo of the sam dean cosplayers where Dean and sam both roll their eyes at them but Dean is the one who way too loudly goes. OH. THAT’S COOL. GOODBYE. when he finds out they’re gay

on one hand it feels like it’s been 20 years since 2020. and if you ask me how long it’s been since november 5th 2020 i would say “at least 15” but also if you ask me how long we’ve been party rocking at destiel i would say no more than half an hour. but also 12 years.

and in 2 months we start the “it’s been half a decade since THIS insane spnblr moment” like. well that just can’t be true. there’s no way we’re coming up on half a decade since our twitter rpf mass hallucination destiel wedding. that was last week.

supernatural IS phenomenology it’s controversy studies it’s exquisite natural research design. you try to come up with the most robust definitions of consensus canon but everything keeps cracking the glass. usually translations don’t cause issue; what about when one’s allowed to change a scene entirely? fanfiction holds no weight but what about when original actors are involved? which ones? what about writers? are filmed deleted scenes closer to ‘counting’ than unfilmed ones? what about how you can define fanfiction as being not as erudite or worthwhile due to its existence as second-order to ‘original’ fiction, except by not even a tough argument supernatural could have been thrown on ao3 as an On The Road horror-fantasy AU with the names barely even scrubbed off. perspective and weights and rankings and shades also when you have a research degree everything looks like data someone knock me out

Do you ever think about how Season 15 of Supernatural starts with Dean unsure if anything between him and Cas was ever real and by the end of the season he's gotten an answer DEFINITIVELY that it was the only real thing in any universe? Because I think about that a lot.