It’s... pretty complicated
CHAPTER 2
FORMALITY
Chapter 1
General summary: College dramas in the life of a third-year student who decides to start, not a relationship, but something with a renowned professor.
Summary: After going out for some time comes the time to define with certainty what is going on between you two.
Pairing: Tom Hiddleston x FemReader
Word count: 5454
Warnings: Content only for over 18s, mentions of insecurity, a bit of nervousness and unprotected sex.
Notes: Sorry to delay in uploading the content, it is somewhat short but I hope you like it, I am open to any comment or suggestion, thanks for reading me.
Not my GIF, credits to whom it may concern.
It had been two months since you started dating Tom, things were going quite well, both managed to be the perfect team in almost everything, you had even finished the project for which you had started to have this relationship.
After a few days when Tom insisted, you agreed to have a key to his apartment, being honest you loved the action but you didn't want him to think that things were going too fast or that you were too invasive, but he really wanted you to have it, so you agreed. He also already knew your apartment, quite smaller than his but still cozy.
”It's pretty cute" Tom looked at you from the dining room while you were on the living room floor looking like a 10-year-old girl learning to use acrylics.
” I feel like it's not completely good " You watched the painting from different perspectives, you prepared it for the university culture week where students compete in various areas such as music, dance, poetry, and even painting.
"Don't be so modest, it's perfect” he stood up and went to the kitchen for paper towels to start cleaning up all your mess.
”You know you're dating with a perfectionist, " you laughed as you saw that all your legs, hands, even your face were full of paint, but you felt pretty, just wearing one of his shirts and your sneakers.
"Oh come on, in that case you wouldn't go out with me, I'm a mess” Very carefully began to wipe your face full of paint.
"Yes, but you're my mess" You accidentally took his face and stained it just like you "And sometimes disasters are prettier than perfect things"
” You're totally beautiful Y/N " Both smiled as you shared a look of complicity and mutual desire.
He carefully began to slide his hands down your legs, at first with the intention of cleaning up the mess of paint that was on your body, however with the rubbing of his fingers on your thighs as he lifted the shirt showing part of your body more than necessary, both knew that this would not just end in a routine cleaning.
For a moment as his fingers touched your skin directly you came closer to him and slid your hand down his neck, right in the places where you knew he would fall under your charm.
After a gaze of complicity, he began to kiss your legs with too much lust , that you could only end up lying on the floor with a curved back, you thanked internally that the only thing you wore under that shirt was lingerie easy to remove.
"Fuck, I want you all the fucking time, this is starting to worry me." With force he spread your legs and kneeling right in front of you he began to unbutton his shirt while you from the ground watched him with your restless breath.
"I told you, you're dating with a fucking perfectionist." You wanted to start unbuttoning your shirt, but with a sharp look and a quick move, he took your hand from yourself, even put your hands over your head with one of his hands as a sign that you couldn't move them.
"This time I command" In a sense excites you even more that position of took full control even over your movements and he saw it through your eyes.
With the intention of generating more desire in your eyes and heat in your body with a delicate touch and taking care that the fingertips slide down all your legs I remove your underwear. You moaned with the touch and put your hands in your eyes as you began to tremble.
” I knew you were excited by my touch, but not so much, " he roared in a voice so deep that you knew that with just this you began to get wet like never before.
"Please Tom" You bit one of your hands while throwing a look of complete need, he saw you for a few seconds with the intention of making you see that he was in charge this time, but still he could not resist to please you.
"Your wishes are orders" He took your legs and placed them on his shoulders as he began to lick your stomach while two of his fingers were inserted inside you so your back curved again just with the entrance. The kisses as well as the rhythm of his fingers began to get more and more desperate, you knew that your moans began to get stronger with each crossroads, and just as he inserted the third finger you felt that you would cum
” You must wait" he roared as he withdrew from you leaving you with half-breath. ”Fuck, even needy, you look perfect."
He began to lick and kiss your entrance at the same time as he played with his hands between your thighs and hips, you could only give sudden pulls of his hair while with the other hand you covered your moans.
”I can't, not anymore" You begged for your release as tears began to come out of the huge climax you were feeling.
"Do it for me" Fiddled a little with your hip as you cum completely feeling an overwhelming release.
After a few seconds you managed that your breathing would stop being so heavy while he was still looking at you with your legs on his shoulders.
"Are you going to stay watching me all day or better I call the pizza boy" You smiled provocatively, you knew it was a bit of a joke "the pizza guy" was a guy who was still a high school student but was a delivery in his spare time, or that's what he told you the other night that he started wanting to flirt with you, until Tom came on the scene in a certain way marking his territory, which didn't bother you at all, it made you laugh.
At the comment Tom bit his tongue and arched one of his eyebrows showing you that you wish you hadn't said that. Quickly he undress you completely, and seeing him take off his belt you knew you would need a few days of rest before you had another round.
He leaned over you carefully, placing his axis right in the middle of your entrance, for seconds (which seemed microseconds) you shared a gaze of mutual lust, as if you were two boys who after so many years of being forbidden to touch each other, could do it now.
He began to enter you and you started to tremble, so when he completely enter you he place your hands on his neck so that you hug him while he began to increase his pace, as it was always quite delicate in these moments, he always pretended a position of superiority and domination before you but dealing with the full moment, in sex always he cared that you feel comfortable and protected.
"Are you okay?" He calmed the rhythm a little while he saw you in the eyes, your hip in front of the action came closer to him, you could contain him and he realized.
"Yes" In the middle of moans and altered breathing you answered half-heartedly ”Go on, please"
His rhythm became quite strong, even his groans were deeper than you had heard before.
"Just fill me of you," you whispered in his ear as they avoided losing consciousness in full mutual orgasm you had.
”Fuck" he replied as you felt as you flooded with him, even at some point you felt as you faded away for a few seconds as he also arched his back over you.
After a few minutes while you were both lying on the floor, carefully he lifted you up and took you to bed while you were dozing in his arms.
"Please don't paint again just with my shirt on” You smiled while he was setting you up to sleep “Or actually, yes, do it again”
"Your wish is my command, isn't it?" You kissed him and then fell asleep.
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The week went quite well, Monday after the great sex you two had, you went to leave your painting for the cultural week contest, you did not make any expectations actually, there were very good paintings, but it would make you very happy to win.
They began to exhibit all paintings and it was very nice that Tom went to the exhibition as if he were another teacher reviewing school activities, but only took a photograph of your paint while you watched him from afar, because you decided to go at the same time to tour the exhibition although in a certain way with their necessary distance, sharing looks from time to time.
On Friday of that week the results were given and it was quite nice when they told you that you had won the first place, you did not believe it, Jared and Diane accompanied you to receive your first place bun while they took photos for the gazette of the following week.
"So, my number one artist would agree to have dinner with me tonight?"Tom kissed your hand already in his apartment while you ate something in the kitchen in incognito mode.
"Tonight?" You laughed when you pictured yourself with your cheeks like a hamster full of children's cereal that Tom had bought specifically for you.
"Come on, it'll be fun, I promise” He took the box and as your ideal partner he also filled his mouth with children's cereal.
"Okay, but where are we going?”
"That'll be a surprise," he winked at you.
"Mmmm" you pouted " but should I go formal, casual or a bit of both?" You caressed his hair as he hugged you around the waist.
”This time it will be formal" He smiled in the form of complicity, as if this had been planned for quite some time” And that's why I bought this" He gave you a gift box with a rather strange logo on the lid, but you knew it was clothing, you had seen it on some boxes of your mother's clothes.
"Hey, you weren't supposed to do this” You pout again, I knew you kind of didn't like me spending on you.
"Just open it, I feel like you're gonna love it”
When you uncovered the box it was a beautiful evening dress, black color, long with opening in one of the legs to make it look more beautiful, with an open back.
"It's ...“ You held it in your hands feeling the fine silk between your fingers, it was a very nice dress "It's perfect" The emotion in your eyes was reliable, you had never worn such a dress before but whenever you saw girls in them, they look beautiful.
"Well, then we have to prepare because the reservation is at 10:00”
"You're a cheat, you should have told me before”
"I wanted everything to be a surprise”
Both will dress up, at the end of the day you looked like a perfect couple, so elegant and mature, even as if they were married, He watched as you modeled for yourself the dress in front of the mirror even without believing how beautiful you looked.
”I could admire you all night" he said as he leaned against the door frame.
”I really love it, thanks a lot" You smiled shyly, it was the first time you wore this type of clothing, something totally out of your comfort zone.
"Come on, a long night awaits us" You never thought it would turn into a long night.
When you arrived at the restaurant it was pretty cute and elegant, it was far from the university, it drove an hour to get there, which was very good, so no one would see you together and it was completely worth the long trip. It had city view with outdoor balconies, jazz background and quite cozy despite so much formality. The waiter was very kind and you knew of the existence of food that you completely ignored.
Everything was going perfectly well until you heard how behind your back someone greeted Tom as they waited behind you.
"Tom?" He sounded like a rather pleasant voice of a mature man, but the presence behind you was two people.
The moment he greeted Tom his instant nervousness reaction was quite obvious, you even noticed that he passed quite strong spittle.
"Mike, hi" You could actually analyze his reaction pretty easily, but it wasn't that obvious to other people.
"Long time no see" Now the woman was the one who spoke, you were very curious to see who they were but you did not want to turn to look.
Tom stood up and shook the man's hand, that's when you decided to look back.
The woman was Tom's age but the man looked older, they were tall, quite formal, he was wearing a perfectly cut black suit, clearly tailor-made, she was wearing a dress came quite low-cut and cute, she was blonde, thin, you were actually overwhelmed to see how perfect the two of them looked together, not as a couple, but as a royalty father and daughter.
"Well, aren't you planning on introducing this pretty lady?"The man saw you from above, you were still sitting and you looked at Tom who also saw you a little worried, you knew that it was because nobody knew about you, literally nobody.
"Sure, sure, she's Y / N” You stood up and shook hands with both of them while Tom held you by the waist.
"Wow, you had the secret well kept Tom" The blonde smiled as she stared at you "You like young girls" you felt that her comment was quite direct and not with a good intention exactly.
”This is Mike and Tara, my friends" Tom saw you trying to tell you that everything was fine.
"Nice to meet you" You smiled shyly as you waited for the atmosphere to relax a bit.
”We do not want to disturb your dinner, so we withdraw" The man clearly noted that you were not very comfortable with the new presence.
"Oh come on, we could have dinner together, would be a good idea, don't you think?"The blonde didn't take her eyes off you, which made you feel quite uncomfortable so you preferred to keep your eyes only on Tom.
"Come on, Tara, I'm sure they already have plans.”
"And we haven't seen each other for a long time, or would you mind?”
Tom cleared his throat and saw you, actually your look was in the sense that it wasn't bad if he said yes, only you asked that he wouldn't leave you alone at any point.
"All right, let's have dinner.”
Actually Mike was a kind and gentlemanly man, you could tell he was self-confident and quite handsome actually, where as Tara was a strange woman, she was attractive, but her attitude towards you made you feel strange.
“And how was your new job? I heard you plan to publish a new book” Mike addressed Tom very kindly while they were waiting for dinner.
"Well I think I'm doing pretty well, the classes help me reinforce everything I already know, even to learn more, and I plan to publish the book in a few months, right, honey?" He took your hand and kissed your knuckles which made you feel very comfortable but just as nervous, it was the first time that someone knew about you two and you had no idea if you were to be trusted in they.
"Yeah, sometimes he lets me read his sketches and they're pretty good, I swear," Mike nodded, it was pretty easy to hold his gaze, quite the opposite with his partner.
"It's good to see you found a nice lady Tom, I thought I would never know anyone who could stand you "Mike joked and you smiled broadly" He's like a son to me, take good care of him please " Tom had never told you about them before, which made you feel something bad being honest but you thought it was for something. Faced with all these comments, Tara kept a cold and quite serious look.
"And how are you doing with the project?" Tom seemed pretty comfortable with the talk, and it made you feel included, so you didn't mind the sudden change of plans at all, at least until now.
"How do you think we are doing with the project, Tom?" The woman sounded very defensive.
"Tara, please don't start" Mike noticed his attitude " It's getting a little complicated with some issues with permits and stuff, but in the end it will be achieved"
"I'm glad, you know I'm sorry I can't help you, I just needed time since the last project we had" Tom saw the table very thoughtful.
"Quiet is fine, we all deserve our space"
The dinner continued something nice, the woman at some point also relaxed and stopped being defensive during the dinner, however that changed in the bathroom.
"I have to go to the powder room, I'll be back in a second," You got up carefully as you examined the place for the baths.
"I'm coming with you, I know where they are," The woman noticed your reaction.
It was a little awkward going there together, but you told yourself that your prejudices were most likely, so don't take her personality so seriously.
"You and Tom look so cute," She retouched her lipstick while washing your hands.
"Thank you, I think we get along very well"
"How many years does he take you?" She saw you from the mirror.
"Ammm" you weren't sure you answer that question.
"Oh sorry, how curious I am" Her comments were completely defensive "I never thought he liked that kind of girls" she smiled mocking.
"Well, it turns out that he and I have a relationship mature enough to be honest" You weren't going to let her make you feel bad, you didn't even know her.
"Relax, with Tom things are only for a while, or at least how did he ask you?" Your gaze reflected how bewildered you were. "Oh, I'm so sorry, he never asked you to get engaged, did he? or at least something similar, that's right, just tell him you like him, he ask you for time, and then he shows up with another girl eating while wondering what you did wrong" Bingo, her comments were of spite, but at the same time your insecurities began to emerge, it was true, he never asked you to be something formal.
Without saying anything you decided to get out of there, but before entering the door Tara spoke to you again.
"Girl, I'm not saying this out of hatred towards you, even if it sounds like that, just be careful with the decisions you take," she licked her lips finishing touching up her makeup.
When you arrived at the table you felt different, as if you could not look at Tom, you were no longer hungry, you decided to ask the waiter to take your plate and bring you only a glass of wine. Does he see you as something for a while? Or did he want you two to be something else?
"I think we should go Mike, tomorrow is work day" Tara gave you a look but no longer aggressive, even seemed to apologize somehow.
"Well, we left them then, it was a pleasure Y/N "Mike kissed your hand" and I hope you won't disappear for years again" he told Tom seriously.
"I promise" Tom stood up and hugged him, they actually looked like father and son, with Tara shaking her hand.
When they finally left you felt an uncomfortable emptiness.
"That was pretty weird," Tom ordered the dessert, though you really didn't want it.
"Don't tell me" you were looking at your glass of wine "Why didn't you ever tell me about them?”
"I never thought it was necessary, actually, it is a stage that I do not like to remember much" He looked you "They're just friends from the past"
"Should I worry about what they know about us?”
”Not at all, they're both trustworthy, Tara might be a bit strange but she wouldn't do anything to hurt us" That made you think that then he had something with her, you unwittingly, frowned your eyebrows tightly "It's everything okay?" Tom bent his gaze trying to find yours.
"Yeah, it's nothing, I'm just tired” you saw him for a few seconds but looked down immediately afterwards.
"If you want we can go home, and there we eat the dessert”
”I think it's perfect." You pretended everything was fine.
During the journey you, you spent thinking about everything told you Tara, you didn't know if it was legit, but somehow that happened to you, you weren't introduced as his girlfriend (which he had never before been necessary in reality) but in a certain way by what Tara had to see that, even asked yourself if you could call him your boyfriend officially, if it is the kind of boyfriend would present with your parents and friends, you realized you had many things to talk about, but you didn't know if it was the right time.
When you arrived at the apartment the first thing you did was go to the bathroom to process a little everything that had happened, when you returned Tom was waiting for you in the kitchen with dessert on a plate and two forks.
"Chocolate cake, as I promised you” He had told you a few days ago that he would make you taste one of the best cakes in town
"I hope it's as good as you promised” You took one of the forks and started eating, but you didn't even notice the taste, your mind was somewhere else.
“So, what do you think?" When Tom asked you clearly, he pulled you out of your thoughts and he realized.
"It's Okay" you smiled without seeing him.
”Don't like it?" Tom seemed disappointed actually.
"No, it's delicious actually, I just don't feel good.”
"What's wrong?”
"Nothing, don't worry”
"No, tell me what's going on, please Y/N" His look showed real concern.
"I don't want to look crazy, you know, let alone upset.”
"You know I would never think that of you”
“It's just, I got to thinking that, I do not know, are we that kind of relationship that presents itself to your friends, family or even parents at some point?“ Tom seemed a little confused, "I mean, I know our relationship is pretty strange and complex, even if we're not something formal, you know" Your hands started shaking unintentionally.
"Hey, what do you mean we're not formal?”
"Yeah, you know, you never asked me to be your girlfriend or something, I guess that's why we're not a couple formally, which is fine if we agreed now, I understand, but ..." You fiddled with the fork in your hand and Tom smiled absurdly.
“You know, I never believed that it was necessary and I'm very sorry, sometimes the age difference makes us look at things a little bit different” In that he was right, sometimes he thought as your grandfather, that made you laugh, “I don't want to sound now like crazy” I look at you intently as he smiled from the side, “I love you Y/N, I love you like you have no idea, I had never before felt that someone understood me this way, and I know I sound like a lunatic by the way in which we met, but you're cute, smart, strong, witty, perfectionist, and you are the most wonderful woman I have ever met in my life" You felt faithfully that he was serious. “So, if you want it, yes, when relevant, you know, for all of this to the university and our professional relationship, I would love you to meet my friends and family, I want to warn you that it will be something strange, but it will be well,” He hug you very strong and you adored the feeling of peace that he conveyed being in his arms “And if you wish, I could meet your friends and family”
"I didn't want to look like I was pressuring you, please don't think that.”
"Never my love, I would never think about it" I kiss your forehead " Just tell me why did you suddenly think about this? For Mike and Tara?" Oh God, you didn't know whether to tell her about your talk with Tara in the bathroom. You hesitated for a second until you decided not to lie.
"Did you have anything to do with Tara?”
”Wow, that was direct “Tom smiled as he sat right in front of the kitchen counter” It's pretty weird, but we never had anything serious you know, she and I went out a few times and then she told me that she was interested in me, but to be honest with you I didn't feel it was her, so I told her that I didn't want anything, which I think that hurt her“ You knew he wasn't lying, you knew it from the tone he had in his voice" So when I finished working with them, by the way, Mike was my professor at the university with whom I started working immediately after graduating and because of whom I met Tara four years ago, I decided to leave, at first because I needed my own time and work on my projects and not only school or work, even personal, and on the other hand I also thought that the best thing was to leave Tara, I no longer felt comfortable"
”I'm sorry, I didn't think it was like that."
"What did she say to you?" He smiled without really taking it too seriously.
"Nothing, only that you had something temporary and you had left without explaining”
“Well, no, actually when I was I don't I lied, I told them what I just said just a second ago, and Mike can confirm, and I'm going to be completely honest, I dated with her for some time, but from the beginning I told her that my intentions were not going beyond something passenger and I thought she had understood” he sighed for a few seconds “With you I don't feel the same, I know what that is for a person to play with you and I hate that people do that, I don't know why Tara told you those things, but I swear I with you I feel very happy and for you I would do anything, I swear " Her look gave you a full sense of tranquility and mutual trust.
”I trust you" You took his face between your hands and you nailed a deep kiss "You know, I love you too" you felt your heart burst with love, it was the first time you told him "And I appreciate that you have the confidence to tell me about this" For a moment you held each other while he stroked your hair.
"By the way" Took the slice of cake and knelt in front of you "Let's pretend this is happening two months ago with two weeks please, do you want to be my girlfriend?" For a moment you thought I was joking so you just laughed "Is seriously, I mean, I don't have a bouquet of flowers or a box of chocolates but I do have a slice of cake, delicious cake, so, what do you say?" When he said he was serious you didn't believe it, it seemed kind of strange in reality but at the same time it flooded your heart with happiness.
"Yes, I would love to” He stood as he held your face between his two hands and kissed you deeply "I would love to be your girlfriend”
"Well, you were already my girlfriend, but let's comply with the formality" He put the cake on the table "this dinner was really weird”
"And dessert is not going to be enough for both of us" You smiled as you took the cake as if you were going to devour it all by yourself.
”Or we can have some other dessert" Oh not that tone of voice, again sex in the kitchen, last time you had to clean everything up, but you certainly smiled boldly just thinking about it again.
"Or, we could try to see if there's anything in the fridge” You ran to the fridge but skillfully caught you by the waist keeping close to him.
"Are you sure?" He turned you firmly by the hips so your back was stuck to his body while your abdomen was right on the kitchen counter, you felt like the heat between your legs began to increase, you appreciated bringing slippers, that helped you a lot for these things.
"Or show me what else we could do" You bit your lips as you placed your hands leaning against the bar.
"With pleasure" whispered in your ear while with his legs he opened yours and made you lie a little more on the bar, quickly raised your dress to the waist and seeing your garters you felt like he got even more excited than he was already, hearing how he undressed from just imagining it you moaned, so immediately that he could tangled your hair in his hand, while with the other he prepared to give you one of the best nights of your life.
Your legs bent completely when he entered you without warning, so you felt as if you were going to fall at that precise moment, with agility he hugged you from the waist holding you while with his same legs he prevented you from closing yours.
”Ask for it" he roared as he took a rather slow pace which made you moan for more at the time.
"Please, please I need you," you moaned as you held with one of your hands his arm that held your hip over the bar.
"You don't know how fucking good you make me feel” he leaned a bit on you so he reached deeper, which made you feel like in fucking heaven, always came to make you feel much better than last time in sex, and that excited you.
"Make me yours, only yours" you begged as your legs began to tremble more and more and your knees felt that at any moment they would give up.
Your heels squeaked on the floor while his belt grazed your legs still hanging from his waist, the onslaught was getting faster and deeper, you couldn't help but moan at the touch of the metal buckle between your legs, even unintentionally you stuck your nails in his arm at every touch.
"So that's why you wanted me to wear this dress so easy to handle" You smiled full of lust as your back curled still over the bar.
”I swear I didn't, but when I saw you with him I couldn't help but want you with all my strength"
At one point you felt like you couldn't take it anymore, the heat all over your body was uncontrollable and when you intertwined his hand with yours you felt like you couldn't want more.
"Come and get me" pressed your hip against him as you felt the orgasm take over both of you from one second to the next, again the kitchen would be a mess but whatever, it was completely worth it.
Her moans and yours together for you were a way to make your orgasm feel a thousand times better, even her hand touching your belly made your legs tremble more than normal.
When you two were done, you were together for a few seconds, but when he let you go, your legs accidentally won, and you almost fell.
"Wow wait" he carried you to the couch where he laid you down with him. "Are you okay?" His voice sounded anxious
"Relax, I'm fine" You smiled still trying to regulate your breathing again " Only I don't think the dress it's okay” You laughed completely when you saw it was dirty than it was more obvious there could be about you right now.
"I guess it goes away" Both laughed when they realized how funny this was.
"Fuck, why are you so perfect?" You kissed him while you laughed.
"I hope that when I meet your parents they will think the same”
"I assure you, yes” you smiled, but you imagined how strange that is going to be when it happens.
