Denpaa

I've been doing this whole thing since I was very young, before I even knew what it was officially called. When I told people about my selfshipping, they always judge me or called me a fucking loser. Which you know, kinda hurts lol. Why is it weird to feel such love and passion about someone simply because it's fictional? If it doesn't hurt anyone and it's done in a healthy and harmless manner then shouldn't it be okay?

Read an x reader smut fic of a character or person who you don't like but don't hate either while you're suuper horny. Guys. Only three things can happen:

Either the horny leaves your body

Or maybe... you get just a bit too into it and the character itself and boom you have a massive fucking crush you can't get rid of

Or a tiny one but really who cares it's the same shit

No keeping up with useless gossip or drama

No having any problems or arguments

No spending on gift giving

No texting each other

No contacting each other at all

No going out to places

No having deep, thoughtful conversations when needed

No need to commit years of your life hanging out with this person who's probably going to die like the rest of us are so what's the point

Yes I'm sad

Yes I chooss to be lonely

Because it's all I will ever be acostumed to for years

And I don't think I want to commit to such relationships, and give away my trust and faith in people again

It's too much.

It's too much for me.

And I don't want to be betrayed again, so I have to avoid the root of my past problems and issues

It's not that I'm 'hiding' it because it's super problematic or bad...? It's that no one cares enough to ask or know about what things I like.

So Instead I listen to them talk and rarely open up about anything to others because it seems like an inconvenience and I know they won't really care

But a point I have maybe is who knows if the AI messed up itself due to the amount of shit it regurgitates from us? So it wasn't a human typo at all?

Who knows if someone really wrote this thing or not or secretly used a slice of AI to "inspire their writing" unless they end up admitting it themselves or slip up?

Like I can't trust shit these days. AI genuinely has ruined everything and how I see creative media.

It's everywhere and I'm fucking tired of even seeing those 2 letters together mate.

So, I'm sorry I can't change what I like and I'm sorry if you find me annoying... If you want me to shut up about it or never mention it again or just go away please tell me. Don't pretend you care or want to listen. It hurts more than you think.