just another bpd shitshow

Imma start charging people for hurting my feelings $3 a minute

constantly flip flopping between “I just want to feel better” and “I don’t even care about functioning properly anymore”

mmm,, got to love the fucking mood drop & resulting fatigue.

I hate how asking “am I annoying you” becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy

i envy people who have squads and friends and people who just belong??? people who know they have a sense of self and worth and people who just live their lives so normally bc i’ll never be able to just belong anywhere i don’t even belong to myself anymore

i deadass lost interest in everything. im just cruising on autopilot rn

being emotionally abused has made me incredibly defensive towards being told what to do, but at the same time has made it hard for me to do things without someone telling me that it’s ok to do out if fear of doing something wrong and getting in trouble

You put it in words…

I’m trying really hard not to be a swamp goblin but the depressión keeps pullin me back in

do you ever feel like maybe you’d spare your friends and family the pain of your miserable existence by…… disappearing?