Bad Brain

Being born into an abusive family did irreversible damage to my brain Everyday I came home to be belittled and screamed at Everyday I had to listen to my parents fight and threaten to divorce each other Any time I brought up a problem I was told to "deal with it" on my own I never had a fucking childhood

You think "Hey! When I'm an adult I'll fix everything, I'll fix my life"

Temperatures so high the world might as well be on fire Corruption everywhere you look, you can't even live life peacefully knowing about the monsters which lead this world No justice, pure hatred, a system you're not just forced, but born into Your destiny is just like everyone else's, work till you die Everything is gray; all colors, aesthetics, originality are gone and replaced by the "modern" minimalistic look You're too self aware to gaslight yourself into ignoring your reality Reality which is distorted to the point you either can't believe certain aspects are real, or don't know whether they're real

Living whole life with undiagnosed adhd, thinking about the things I could've accomplished Having an eating disorder since childhood which nobody ever bothered to fix Having borderline knowing no one in real life will ever understand the struggle Whole life fitting into the image my parents wanted, then realizing I have no concept of my identity

There is quite literally not a single reason for my existence