bpd hippo

make your bed to immediately make your room look more put together

water first, then coffee or tea

pray or meditate, even just for ten minutes, to set the tone for your day

browse the news headlines ( & read the articles that interest you when you’ve got time)

wear something you feel b o m b in

listen to music while doing your daily activities-commuting, cleaning, cooking, exercising

smile at at least two people

smile at YOURSELF

call or message someone you love

eat food that makes you feel radiant

make lists of things you need to accomplish for the day

stretch for 10 minutes

record in your phone the positive thoughts you have so you can remember them

carry water with you (always always always)

shut off your phone for an hour and have some ME time

take a hot shower or bath at the end of a stressful day

try to make plans to spend time with someone at least once a week

think about 3 things you are grateful for at the end of each day

do something calming, relaxing, and non-electronic 30 minutes before you sleep

I will now impart all of my profit killing resources onto you, in case you don’t know them. I think most of you know them, now. But just in case you don’t.

THIS IS US-CENTRIC. I’M SORRY. 

1. GoodRx - this thing has an app now, so you can look up the best places to get your expensive medicines at the lowest possible prices without insurance on the go, and you no longer have to print coupons because you can just hand over your phone or tablet. Times have changed for the better with GoodRx. Definitely use it before trying to fill your scrip, because it will tell you the best place to go. (You can do that on the website, too.)

2. NeedyMeds - Needymeds is basically the clearinghouse of drug payment assistance. They have their own discount cards, but also connections to many patient assistance programs run by drug companies themselves. They are good assistance programs, too.

3. Ask your county - This is not a link. This is a pro tip. Most county social services will have pharmacy discount programs for people with no and/or shitty pharmaceutical coverage. You can often just find them hanging around at social services offices; you can just pick one up and walk off with it. 

4. Ordering online - There are a few safe online pharmacies. I keep a little database in a text file on my computer. Most of them are courtesy of CFS forums, my mother or voidbat, so a lot of that is a hat tip to other people, but if you’re in need of a place to get a drug without a prescription … first I’ll make sure you 100% know what you’re doing for safety reasons and then I’m happy to turn over a link. 

5. Healthfinder - A government resource that helps find patient assistance programs in your area. This might also point out the convenient county card thing. RxHope is something a lot of people get pointed to via Healthfinder that’s a good program.

Do a Google search for “patient assistant programs” + (your med), or search the manufacturers website. Sometimes the info is online; other times you have to call.

Even some of the big name pharma companies have this. It’s certainly not all companies, or all meds, but it is worth a shot.

Before Obamacare, I lost insurance and couldn’t pay for my mood stabilizers (kiiiiinda important to have those when you’re bipolar.) I was on generic Lamictal, but I went to the official Lamictal website, filled out a form with a valid prescription, and they mailed my meds to me every month for free.

8/7/18 Dear You, The person reading this that is going through so much. The person that is struggling to keep their head above water.. the person that fights day in and day out for their life. I am so proud of you- yes, you reading this. And this goes for everyone reading this. Because you are so worthy, and so strong.. and I know that it’s hard.. and I know that you become weak.. feeling hard to stand.. especially on the hard days. But just remember this.. every single “hard day” of your life.. you’ve made it! You’ve fallen asleep at night, and woke up in the morning. That counts for everything- because you are stronger than you think.. and I love you. I love you, and i am so proud of you.

1. “I am beautiful.”

2. “I love and approve of myself.”

3. “I choose to think thoughts that enhance my life greatly.”

4. “I am worthy.”

5. “I accept myself exactly as I am.”

6. “Forgiveness is the door out of my past.”

7. “When I forgive myself, it is easier for me to forgive others.”

8. “I accept that I cannot change anyone but myself.”

9. “My life is constantly improving.”

10. “I understand that in order to grow, change is needed.”

11. “I flow easily with life.”

12. “I am worthy of forgiveness.”

13. “All experiences are opportunities to grow.”

14. “I welcome positive change with ease.”

15. “I am deeply grateful for all of the wonderful people and things in my life.”

16. “I radiate good health.”

17. “I only give my body goodness.”

18. “I trust my intuition.”

19. “I lovingly think in a positive way.”

20. “I am at peace with myself.”

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Tidy up your bedroom

Change your whole outfit - underwear, shoes, hairstyle, the lot

Scribble with a Crayon as hard as you can on a big sheet of paper

Go to a library and wander around in the quiet

Make a wish list on each of your favorites shops’ websites

Go to sleep as early as you can bare

Play the “would you rather?” game with a friend

Talk to your sibling(s), see what they’re up to

Sit down and study for a bit, then see how you feel

Don’t kill yourself today

Because your Netflix trial still has a week left

Don’t kill yourself today

Because no one else will finish off the chicken in the fridge

Don’t kill yourself today

Because I know for a fact that Starbucks is releasing a new Frappuccino sometime next month

Yes, your mother will miss you

Yes your bully will make a sappy Facebook post about how what a a wonderful person you were

And yes

Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem

You know that

You’ve known that

Everyone and anyone has been shoving that down your throat since they first learned what the word suicide meant

So don’t kill yourself

Until you finish your shampoo and conditioner at the same time

Don’t kill yourself

Until Doctor Who is finally cancelled

Don’t kill yourself

Until you tell someone your best pasta recipe 

Don’t kill yourself 

Because I will keep coming up with reasons for you not to

And I need you

To hear all of them

Don’t kill yourself

I love you

You’re important

It’s a bad day

Not a bad life

There is more to this

The world will keep spinning on its axis without you

But

Think of all the sunrises you’d miss

I know this sounds pointless

But when you’re sitting in front of everything deadly you own

Revising your goodbyes

There will be too much darkness 

To see anything else

But this is not about seeing anything else

This is about turning off the lights

This is about finding the bed instead of the noose

This is about giving yourself one more day

Even if it takes ten thousand of those

One more morning’s

Until

“I can’t wait for tomorrow”

This is about staying alive

Because there’s gonna be a new Marvel movie

No one should miss that

This is about staying alive

Because the future is coming 

And it’s ready for you

I don’ t need you to see it

I just need you to believe you can make it 

Until then

It is a phenomena that is actually very common among people with BPD, but for the most part, is classified under another subset of symptoms or never spoken about directly.

Object permanence is the understanding that objects continue to exist even when they cannot be observed 

Emotional Permanence, therefore, is the understanding that emotions (and other abstract concepts and expressions like love) continue to exist when they cannot be observed

Many people with BPD have difficulty recalling or recreating any given emotion without the stimuli behind that emotion being present

Issues with Emotional Permanence are particularly noticeable in our relationships with other people. I think that this is a major reason why we constantly seek reassurance, and why we are so often plagued by fear of abandonment. When a person in our lives removes an emotional stimuli via the absence of their presence or reassurance, we find it difficult to recall if that reassurance ever existed.

So, an example: Someone reassures us that we are loved, that we are not annoying them. We are comforted. That person goes away for a while, or doesn’t explicitly mention those words for a while. When that happens, we no longer recall being loved or reassured. While we can be provided concrete evidence of those reassurances, we cannot recreate, revisit, or properly reflect upon the intention and emotions within that exchange, thus we feel unloved, or begin to worry about being annoying.

This is typically when emotions skew towards a depressive cycle. We feel as anxious and depressed as we did before we were reassured the first time. So at this point, we typically seek out additional reassurance. If it’s given, it comforts us, but it does not prevent the cycle from happening again. (Sometimes it’s not given, because in a Catch-22 of mentally ill BS, we end up annoying someone by asking them if we’re annoying them too often)