But It Was Love

instead of Lestat narrating: "Larry's death brought our band closer together"

the band is living in Lestat's house. Louis wakes up, has his cute chat with Lestat, says an awkward hello to Salamander (who's butt-naked in the kitchen). TC is fiddling around on Lestat's grand piano. Alex smoking indoors (Lestat puts out the cigarette as he's talking to Louis).

Lestat can't let his band out of his sight. Of course they live with him now.

[are you companions] yes. [no.]

i want you. i want you more than anything in the world.

are you asking, maître?

i artlessly assumed companionship, which was wish-fulfilling delusion rooted in childhood conflict.

they were my coven for 200 years. and i could not count on your love lasting as long.

i will spend my life making it up to you. [you'll never make it up to me] i know.

the room's soiled and once again, i'm here with mop and mindlessness to clean it up!

if you wanted to escape from this prison of empathy i’ve locked you away in. all you had to do was ask.

louis thinks i'm boring. do you find me boring?

you left me for death.

i preserve louis' happiness even when he won't or can't.

come to me.

i could talk until the end of the world about what you've destroyed here.

i love you, lestat.

and i locked those words away for the next 150 years. until you came along and shattered that lock.

and i thought if i'm not with him i am nothing.

everyone gone. you hear them but you can't see them.

everything that gives you happiness, gives me, louis!

my name is arun and i'm an addict.

i have been enduring intense conversation with myself.

i wish to read you something i've written from the deepest regions of my soul [you have no soul]

i look for the vulnerability within the object.

i am your maker! i cannot get into your head any longer!

it wasn't my love for louis. but it was love.

i want to be your maker. i want to give you half your life back. help you walk in the sun.

my first memory. i'm being run down by slavers in delhi. my second... an eager black hole.

i think i might be a room without walls, floors, a ceiling. an infinite nothing.

“I need the three of them on a subreddit banner, some kind of face holding would be nice” OMG SAY NO MOAR I thought enthusiastically- and just like that I got to draw this ✨ thank you iwtv_vampirelestat (on ig) for giving me the perfect opportunity to squeeze these terrible people together 💕

And as for the many boys you drugged, drained, and lay with, I feigned resentment when, in fact, I welcomed your straying because your guilt in their aftermath bound you to me all the more tightly and allowed me my hours of observation with Daniel.

I've been rewatching season one - for the zillionth time - but this time around I'm taking into account a couple of things from season two and three.

Firstly, Armand telling Daniel in season 2:5 that Daniel's wife will count down his thrusts. In other words, Daniel's future wife is just going to "lie there, close her eyes, and think of England," as the old saying goes.

Secondly, in season 3:1 Lestat says that sharing the blood is way better than sex. In fact, he ranks sex only fourth on his list. So, with that in mind, I'm thinking getting sucked off by your vampire husband has got to be pretty hot, yeah?

And yet, in season 1:5 we see Armand as "Fake Rashid" doing exactly what Armand predicts Daniel's future wife is going to do. His eyes are closed and he's completely impassive as Louis drinks from him. That man is tolerating Louis's attention, but he isn't getting any pleasure from it. He's doing his duty. Because if getting sucked off is so fucking hot and erotic, why is it the only time he's animated during this whole scene - and seems to be enjoying himself - is while he holds a whole ass conversation with Daniel.

Also, Armand's face when Louis pulls off him is not the face of a man who's just had great vampire sex. He looks humiliated, resentful, and grateful it's over.

I wouldn't be surprised if that was the night he decided to put the Fred Steins in Louis's photo collection just to fuck with his head. Because Louis is absolutely fucking with both Daniel and Armand's heads in this scene.

I think Armand told the truth. Louis is "calculating to the core and methodically cruel" and it's played out here when he talks about "my Rashid" to Daniel. As if Armand is just another piece of property that Louis has acquired. Like Marius before him, and the brothel owners, and slavers before that.

I would have done more than put the Steins in the box.

daniel molloy I love you