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FOOD! IS! DISGUSTING!

remember when i was pregnant and would be seven months by now

I hope all two of my friends know that I actually hate them and hope they die painfully

I’m :-) so :-) emotionally :-) dysregulated :-)

today was awful, like literally had a horrifying sobbing breakdown at 8:30 in the morning because i overslept and missed a meeting awful, so then i decided (while screaming on the phone to my mother that i wanted to die lol) i wasn’t cut out for school or to be an artist or to be alive and i was quitting everything with no backup plans because i just waste money and time and space and this life, i almost emailed my advisor about dropping out, and like by 6 pm i had calmed down enough to feel like i’m back in my own (somewhat) rational head again but now I'm just so fucking tired and i CANNOT live like this anymore its not fair!!!!!!!!! that rapist motherfucker ruined me and i’m never going to get my Self back

IM NOT CUT OUT TO LIVE ANY LIFE I DONT DESERVE ANYTHING GOOD BUT I CANT HANDLE ALL THIS FUCKING PAIN BECAUSE IVE ALWAYS BEEN AND ALWAYS WILL BE A FAILURE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE

IM SO PARANOID BUT WHAT’S THE ALTERNATIVE???? DO PPL LIVE THEIR WHOLE LIVES NOT THINKING ABOUT THE IMPLICATIONS OF EVERY SINGLE THING THEY DO

it's almost 4 am but I went to bed at 930 fell asleep and then woke back up and am doing this thing I call thought spiraling and oooo this is a really bad one