hey y’all, its been a while
i’ve gotten a lot of messages in the past few months asking if im okay and tbh!!!!! i’ve been really bad lol. ive been really depressed for a couple months and i avoided every call from my doctor. my birthday was in the last week and honestly, i was so depressed that i couldn’t even look forward to it. i was really suicidal for a couple of weeks to the point where i was like ??? am i even going to have a birthday ???
idk what happened. maybe having better relationships with friends to the point where i actually feel supported, maybe i stopped isolating myself more (bc i’ve also been pretty manic and avoiding school/studying/actually focusing and instead ive been going out with ppl that gas me up and drinking a lot soooo...). but anyways, last week i called my doctor because i was sick of wanting to kill myself 24/7 and she finally referred me out and told me that i need to see someone who will actually prescribe me the meds i need (which i am so thankful for)
so im going to see a therapist next week and i’m supposed to be making an appointment with a psychiatrist so. that’s what’s new. i hope i can get a diagnosis and i hope i can be put on meds that work because every time i’ve started a new med, it’s worked for maybe a month before i just want to die again.
cool stuff is happening
