Boney

TW/CW: eating disorder, suicidal ideation

ALWAYS pro-recovery, genuinely I know this isn’t for everyone, it’s not my intention to dignify what I do and the way I think. Please, please, please take care of yourself and if you’re on the road to recovery please take it. Good luck, and I believe in you!

Completely against body shaming other women.

Block, don’t report, I KNOW you think you’re helping but you’re taking away the only sense of community I have in doing so.

I’ve had 4n4 for a bit, on and off, longest recovery period was around 2 years but I still had disordered eating habits. I’m a stressed out uni student and I feel a bit more in control of myself when I’m not eating and it makes me feel less disgusting as a person.

This is an open venting space for me, I don’t want to glorify the above, nor do I think what I do is normal. I’ve tried recovering multiple times, I don’t think I can get any better. I just want a community that understands.

I think there’s a guy in my year that likes me? I’ve been consumed with that and I’m going to be seeing him around more often but the other day he bought lasagna from the canteen and he offered it to me and I don’t know if he thinks because I’m fat I’d take it. It looked so fatty I need to restrict more so he doesn’t think that. Although he hasn’t messaged me on ig, I’ve only known him for 2 months but he keeps wanting to talk to me in the last 2 weeks for no real reason but maybe that’s just him being friendly - I have no idea.