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it’s nothing “dramatic” or big, but jean does describe neil with “he was somewhere else” and he does it more than once.

also following this up with; I know nora’s said neil will never trust betsy enough to go to therapy (aside from one or two sessions in his senior year & when neil went to betsy to tell her that andrew needed a mother during aaron’s trial) but I’m a firm believer he will. not because he wants to, but more out of necessity (or maybe a deal of sorts).

I have no idea if i already posted this here, but i was going through my computer and found it.

I imagine this as where Neil is a raven who has to fight tooth and nail to be alive, he sees and goes through so much pain on the daily that sometimes he gets lost in all the darkness in his head. Andrew (a fox) is the one good thing in his life, the only light and piece of happiness Neil has ever had, and he will do ANYTHING to keep andrew as far away from his painful reality as possible. So much so that andrew has no idea of what neil goes through, he just thinks neil gets a bit sad sometimes, so he makes it his full time job to comfort and take care of his neil.

Neil never lets anyone see him sad, hurt, or tired, he keeps his persona of a strong, uncaring and menace of a guy, but sometimes he just hits his limit, sometimes he's just so tired of all this pain, so he allows himself to be a bit vulnerable around andrew.

Andrew doesn't know that sometimes.. he is the only thing keeping Neil alive.

Neil might tell him one day.. or Neil might just vanish one day.. it all depends on how his week will go before he can see andrew again.

Neil: Kevin is tall and has a tattoo

Jean: pretty boy with a soft smile and beautiful green eyes

Neil: Renee is a women and has hair

Jean: a force of hope and beauty, an anomaly in a world that’s ugly and bleak. She is the sun.

Neil: Jeremy is the captain of the Trojans and he smiles a lot for some reason

Jean: his bleach blonde hair frames his tanned freckled skin, his broad shoulders and tiny waist give way to his thicc thighs and ass

But also the reverse

Neil: Andrews strong unwavering frame and honey colored eyes

like, yeah, he's the runaway son of a serial killer. he saw his father take a man apart. he was on the run for eight years. he might've killed people while on the run. he burned his mother's corpse and buried her bones. his father has connection with the yakuza. his mother comes from a british crime family. he inherited his father's anger and has to physically wipe his father's smile from his face.