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2: Do they actively fear death/how do they feel about themself dying?

Hm hmm.. I think the only thing she fears about death right now is dying before she can complete her goals/make sure all her loved ones are set for life. Theres no active fear of death going on I'd say... part of that because she's hard to kill and part of that because shes a loong way off from ever dying of old age.

7: Have they ever killed someone? 

Yes = If so how did that shape affect their perception of death?

No = is there ever a situation where they would? What would that be?

Yes. She's been kind of desensitized to it, only ever really processed what it did after she'd killed a few times. But even then she doesnt see it as a big thing unless its someone she cares about.

Killing isn't something she sees herself feeling bad about doing unless its. 1. children she's grown mildly attached to. or 2. someone she loves, as mentioned.

....she wouldn't kill children. just to be clear. or any innocent person just like that.

but if people she doesnt know are opposing her. or if she had to choose between a child and someone from her hoard. its an easy choice is all

9: Have they ever wanted to kill themself?

Yes = why? did they try? were they still scared?

No = is there anything that would cause them to want to?

Yyeaah.. where she is right now in the arc I have her in she's. she keeps considering it. but she has someone to save so she can't. She's never tried before, just. has really bad days. But hey.. gotta push through for loved ones... if she dies then whos gonna save em...

she tries not to stew in that feeling for too long. because death feels like a betrayal at this point. How could she be so selfish as to die when people need her? and all

12: What would they be thinking about and feeling in their final moments?

It really depends on the circumstances. If its naturally, then she'd be really satisfied i think. because she's had a loong time to live.. and shes completed everything she wanted to in life...

if unnatural, she'd be frustrated no matter how she dies because. she hasnt gotten to live how she wanted to yet.. and she was supposed to have so much time...

even worse if she dies where she is right now in the arc because. theres no way to get anyone to save the person shes after in her place. theres no way to reach that person anymore. She'd have died with so much frustration and anger at that... the kind that gets so strong it makes your head spin and its hard to think clearly

SO so so so. so. so . sharing her music heavily depends on the person. Typically she only shares her music with people she knows well, but if someone she knows but isnt on that level with yet walks in. she'll like. be super fucking embarrassed but she wouldn't pause... just try to get through to the end n' all.... and then depending on their reaction she might share her music with them.

She usually composes instrumental pieces because she likes trying to convey emotion without words. her music is very personal to her (usually a reflection of her emotions/she tries to sort her shit out by making it audible because its hard to tell what she's feeling at times when everything is too intense and all jumbled together)

That and when she was a child she never really. spoke. or had any sort of way to regulate her emotions. so this is kind of doing that child justice (expressing herself without words and all.) (Even music WITH lyrics would feel like she's doing her child self justice but well. singing scary. she tends to stay away from it.)

🎻 VIOLIN — does your oc play any instruments? what is their skill level (beginner/intermediate/advanced/virtuoso/etc)?

YEAH sshhe plays uhh

piano, violin, and a few wind instruments (flute, ocarina)

Skill lvl with each of em wld be..

🎮 VIDEO GAME CONTROLLER — what are three of your oc's favorite hobbies?

Playing instruments/composing music, sparring with people she loves (its like a lil bonding time thing..), and shopping.

She likes Getting Things (though maybe its the fault of the hoarding instinct..). She's the kind of person who'll see something, think "oh this reminds me of a person!" and buy it for them without a second thought. Making em happy feels good..

💍 RING — does your oc have any piercings? do they want any (more) piercings?

🎶 MUSICAL NOTES — what type of music does your oc like? do they listen to music very often?