I don’t want to be part in my own life anymore. I understand why nobody wants to stay in my life…

I really feel like im losing. Like I feel so controlled by my trauma, anxiety, depression, disorders and it's overpowering me. It controls my life. Everything in my life. I feel so paralyzed and so fucked up. Why can't I just be normal. How does everyone else make it look so easy. I'm tired, exhausted, really.

In the least depressing way possible, nobody misses me while I am here so nobody will miss me when I am gone.

I don't wish to die, rather I desire to not exist. To not have to experience this anymore. To never have been born. To go to sleep, forever. There is such bliss in nothingness, that I will never get to feel.

All I want is for all of this to finally end

“I grew up without sharing my problems to my parents..”

If I'm going to feel this way for the rest of my live I'd rather not live at all.

one thing about me is i am not doing so well

“I just be in my room losing my fuckin mind..”

I can’t treat people like they treated me because I know how it hurts.

I dont belong in this world. I never did and never will.