This morning I used @blushing-beldam âs âTake a Good Lookâ spread. I didnât go into it with a specific issue in mind, but it gave me a pretty clear definition of whatâs been holding me back. (Using the Aquarian Tarot deck by David Palladini)
Self/8 of Pentacles: Though I am seeing the results of past hard work, I also want more than ever to achieve my goals, especially those of the concrete/material nature.
Reflection/8 of Cups: However, these goals will always be out of reach until I move past the negative emotions that hold me back. I ought to focus on moving past fear, pride and the other nasty emotions than hold me down.
Foundation/Strength(VIII): My need for self-control stifles my creative nature. Being ârightâ or âperfectâ wonât guarantee success - sometimes emotion and creativity are needed to solve problems. An unhealthy obsession with perfection distracts me from taking action.
Mascara/Ace of Cups: Iâm not seeing the potential for optimism. New achievements and positive emotions are totally attainable once old patterns are gone.
Lipstick/The Lovers(VI): I need to accept that achievement requires both logic and emotion - a duality. More cooperation with others will also serve me well.
Vanity/Page of Pentacles: I canât reach my goals if I am constantly changing my target, searching for something new. My aspirations may seem far away, but what I do today, with whatâs in front of me, will determine whether I reach them.
Themes:
Cups vs Pentacles/Emotions vs Reality: This has been coming up frequently in my readings lately. I tend to feel that only boring, mundane things lead to success & happiness, and that emotions hinder success. However, both are needed.
8 Numerology (8 of Pentacles, 8 of Cups, Strength/VIII): The number 8 is said to relate to achievement, goals, success, and abundance, as well as the nature of infinity (endless). Reaching my own goals has definitely been a focus for me lately, but sometimes I envision success as an endpoint or destination, when in fact it is a continuum, a never-ending process of improvement.