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“I never want to come back here again. I fucking hate it here. And they all fucking hate me. I pay for everything. I make sure everyone has clothes they like. I make sure the food is perfect. That father is buried next to his parents, that the tomb is perfect. And the only fucking word I ever hear is: i want more Ilya, i need more Ilya. More, more, more, more, more. And I have nothing for these people. I give them everything.. but I feel fucking empty. They don't care, they look at me and see a bank. Or an enemy. Or I don't even know what. My brother, he always hated me. And I know why... but it kills me. And it kills me that he took care of my father and I didn't. But I couldn't. I wasn't here. I still paid for it all. And he will never forgive me. For any of it. For existing. And it means... I have no one now. Well not no one, I have Svetlana. She loves me, and I love her. But not like... fuck me. But not like I love you. That's the worst fucking part of all this is. That all I want is you. It's always you. I'm so in love with you and I don't know what to do about it."

↳ WEDNESDAY | 2.06 “Woe Thyself”

ILYA ROZANOV WEEK: DAY SIX A SONG THAT REMINDS YOU OF ILYA (sorry, there’s a lot)  — THE BOY WITH THE THORN IN HIS SIDE, THE SMITHS — KINTSUGI, LANA DEL REY — KNOCKIN’ ON HEAVEN’S DOOR, BOB DYLAN — GOLDEN BURNING SUN, MILEY CYRUS — COME OVER, NOAH KAHAN — DEATH WITH DIGNITY, SUFJAN STEVENS — RASPUTIN, BONEY M — THE GREAT DIVIDE, NOAH KAHAN — MOTION SICKNESS, PHOEBE BRIDGERS — RIVER, JONI MITCHELL

WEDNESDAY 1.08 › 2.08

good morning, I like you ˘³˘

BRIDGERTON | S3E7 “Joining of Hands”

Heated Rivalry ll S01EP05

antonio cipriano as john logan in ‘off campus’ season one

Olivia Rodrigo - Sour Release Date: May 21, 2021 I’ll tell my Uber driver all of my deepest traumas and insecurities, and so I just think songwriting for me is an extension of that aspect of my personality. I’ve never really been so terrified of people learning about the intimate parts of myself; I think that’s what makes songwriting so special.

Heated Rivalry, p. 239

WEDNESDAY S2.E7 ∙ Woe Me the Money

HEATED RIVALRY | EP 5

HEATED RIVALRY 1.05 • I'll Believe in Anything