Smoke and Whiskey

This is still the world we live in, Can't be comfortable in your own skin. And just being yourself would be a sin. Whatever you choose you can never win.

I am definitely still in love with her, but I now know that she is much happier. She already has her happily ever after, Farewell, I am no longer your lover.

Soon your mind will be at ease, and soon you'll have inner peace. Life can sometimes be a tease, and stronger than you'll ever be.

It's your love that I still long for, just like what I wanted before. For you have touched my core— and I will always be craving for more But Love, how do I let you go? please tell me, I want to know. Even if I would have a hollow chest, But I know it would be for the best.

Every day I still try to get by, I'm still asking myself why. Slowly looking up to the sky, as I started to cry. She's a jolly type of girl, she'll make your heart twirl. Right then and there I fell, as everything turned out well. Every day I feel like I'm dreaming, my poor little heart screaming. As she gives a smile that's beaming, her sweet adoring face that's freeing. Me from all the pain, her love that keeps me sane. But it suddenly started to rain, and for a second I thought I was insane. The nightmares were real, as the monster broke its seal. But she came up with a deal, agreeing to be its meal. She looked at me with nothing to say, I should've fought so she could stay. I should've tried to find a way, but it already took her away. She was found wearing a necklace, and they gave her their last embrace. All of us were caught in a daze, our minds trapped in a maze. A promise that no one would cry if someone decided to say goodbye. But my Love, I wouldn't even lie. It's a promise that's hard to live by

You destroyed and broke her, but she'll bounce back stronger. She tries to keep herself together, she knows she's the great pretender. She tries to get up and fight, even if she already lost her might. She tries to look for the light, even if she already lost sight. She was alone in the dark, and that pain left a painful mark. She was lost in the maze, Can you see her tear-stained face? She has millions of questions, and she feels nothing but frustration. Confusion on her face was visible, as well as pain that was unbearable. She'll do whatever it takes, doesn't matter what's at stake. She won't make the same mistakes, investing in something fake. She won't lose herself again, love for thyself she'll regain. Her old self she'll redeem, a promise that she'll keep. She'll be coming back stronger, she'll be coming back wiser. and whatever it may take she won't be making the same mistake.

Dark deep thoughts lurking in my head, hoping that somehow I will be saved. As I am currently drowning, do you hear me screaming? Barely holding on to my sanity, the fear of being consumed by insanity. Please tell me this isn't reality, tell me I'm just living in fantasy. My soul was left shattered, and my screams couldn't be heard. I guess I'm already good as dead, no one can hear the words I've said. Steel glistening in the light, Oh! Why does it feel so right? Letting out a satisfying sigh, as I slowly begin to lose sight. Swimming in a red deep ocean, suppressed deep dark painful emotions. Ending all connections, ending all interactions. I already lost myself, and there is nothing left. But only waiting for death, as the sun would set.

Stay and play if you dare, as if they'll even care. But there is something dear at stake, it is your soul for them to take.

Her beautiful brown eyes, just look how they shine. Somewhere down the line, hoping she'll look into mine. Her sweet adoring face, caught me in a daze. A beauty that's so rare, I can't help but stare. She moves like a Goddess, which left me in a mess. Images flood my mind, surely she's hard to find. A love that's forbidden, feelings need to stay hidden. But my heart beats for her, wishing we could be together. The daughter of Aphrodite, left me stuck in a fantasy. Stole me from reality, as I looked at her lovingly. How can I be so careless, leaving my heart restless? She's in fact a beauty, who drives me crazy.

You were once my sweet lover, but now you are my murderer. I am a fool who believed in you, but now you tore my heart in two. Your sweet words turned into lies, it stung like daggers and knives. Promises that were meant to be broken, a love that was never meant to happen. I shouldn't have let you in from the start, I should've known you'd break my heart. But I was a faithful believer, of you who was a murderer. You touched my heart and soul, and it was yours to hold. Not knowing I'll make the biggest mistake, but still went through it for your sake. I fought for what we have, I fought for you Love. But what have you done? You run away, just gone. Don't you dare wish me well, You were nowhere when I fell. You left me with nothing else, then left me alone in hell! You can never make everything right, you left me alone in the fight. All I want is for you to be out of my sight, even if it would be hard to sleep at night. Just go and never come back, A warm heart is what you lack. You're a cold-hearted murderer, who was once my sweet lover.

Addicted to the taste of poison, don't ask me why for there's no reason. I love being locked up in your prison, tasting your lips painted with crimson. I love the way you gaze, as I'm pulled into a daze. Words unable to form into a phrase, since my mind is in a haze. Your touch that's burning, your scent that's addicting. Your love keeps me from escaping, even though I'm already hurting. I'm your blind believer, I'm your faithful lover. Your kiss that makes me weaker, Darling, I guess I'm a sucker. You're a sadist, I'm a masochist. Your love I can't resist, I know it doesn't even exist. I live in my own fantasy, I don't want to go back to reality. For it's just full of cruelty, I would just suffer miserably. What is even worth escaping for? I'm already shattered to the core. And I always come back for more, since now I'm just your whore.

Her soft lips were painted red, and scenarios started to play in my head. Remembering all those words she said, every time I lay down in my bed. Our song started to play, and her body started to sway. But I can't look away, and I don't even know what to say. My eyes began to water, memories of us together. Arms wrapped around each other, now in the arms of another. She gave him a sweet kiss, that's one thing I surely miss. Her kiss gives you bliss, and now it's officially his. I guess this is for the best, my heart can now finally rest. I need to fix my own mess, but it wouldn't hurt any less. It's time to let her go, even if my heart says no. But I want her to know, that I have loved her so.

It was always your sweet escape, it was your emotions that helped you create. A masterpiece that people can relate, to the extent they can feel your heartache. Remember the times you started writing, those times when you were breaking. Those times when you were hurting, those times when you were drowning. It made you get up and fight, it helped you restore your might, When everything doesn't feel right, you sit down and start to write. So now grab a pen and a paper, go ahead and try to remember. The reason why you became a writer,   and the magic behind "The Dreamer."