꩜ — odie

I find it pretty hilarious how if you remove billy's spirals, that's no longer billy it's just Some Puppet

lawrence baking cookies and adam tries to steal one so lawrence gently swats his hand away w his cane

after his sister died and Hoffman's mental health worsened, I believe he tried to kill himself. just sat on his bed one night, staring down at the gun in his hands, millions of thoughts racing through his mind. the only reason he didn't is because he promised to himself he would kill the shithead who took angie away from him. he'd put him down like a rabid dog. the satisfaction he would get from killing seth was enough to make him not commit, he started planning on how he'd do it and how he'd get away with it that night, eventually deciding on a trap to frame Jigsaw for his crime. he started scribbling down loose ideas of what it'd look like and what it'd do, how it'd seem like there was a way to survive even though there wasn't. the idea of it was the only thing that kept him alive.

tapp and sing would come home from an exhausting day at work and just sit and eat dinner on the couch while watching a movie together, they'd cuddle and drink wine and once the movie ends they'd go to bed and sing would fall asleep smiling in tapp's arms. tapp would always hold sing's face and just admire everything about it, he loved his smile, his eyes, his nose, everything. he'd kiss him on the forehead before he'd also fall asleep. after sing died tapp realised how empty it felt without him. he'd eat dinner on their couch by himself while watching their favourite movie, although watching it without sing felt wrong, he would look over to the spot on the couch he would sit and expect to see him smiling with his eyes fixed on the TV, just to be greeted by nothing. he'd put down a plate of food and a glass of wine for him just for it to remain untouched. he'd go upstairs and into their bedroom, he'd lay on his side of the bed and wait for sing to climb in and cuddle up next to him, although that wouldn't happen. he'd end up cuddling sing's pillow instead, maybe put some of his shirts on it so he could close his eyes and be able to smell it, to be able to pretend his lover was still with him. he'd never be able to hold or kiss or admire his face again, and he realised that over time he began to forget what his smile looked like or what his kiss felt like, and that was one of the things that hurt him the most.

do you think tapp was haunted by the memory of sing? do you think that he only realised how much sing meant to him after he died? do you think he realised that he had distanced himself from him because of the case and now he'll never be able to make it up to him? he'd never be able to spend time with him again, or be able to get coffee with him again, to hold his hand again, to look in his eyes again. He never got to go out on peaceful strolls at night with him, or go watch a movie together, or anything else that they missed out on bc they were too busy. he never even got to confess his love to sing, nevermind solve the case with him. he'd never be able to feel like he was actually cared about or loved again. he'd never be able to open himself back up, he'd isolate himself from the world, wishing that sing would somehow walk through his door and hug him, and tell him everything will be okay.

do you think that Lawrence is haunted by the guilt of not being able to save Adam? do you think it kept him up at night? do you think that'd he wake up in cold sweat, feeling like Adam was clinging to him again, hearing his cries, him begging for Larry to not leave him? do you think whenever he heard a dirty joke he thought of Adam? do you think whenever he saw the flash of a camera he turned to look and hoped it would somehow be Adam taking the picture? do you think whenever somebody touched him on the shoulder he thought of how Adam grabbed his shirt there? do you think he writ down a description of Adam, what he looked like, his personality, what he acted like, what his voice sounded like, what his touch felt like just so he could try to preserve him in his memory? do you think he ever thought about that once he dies, he'll be remembered but Adam will be completely forgotten?

hc that sing is a great baker and tapp is a great cook and they both make eachother things to cheer up the other when they're sad. sing enjoys watching tapp cook and tapp enjoys watching sing bake. the day before their anniversary sing began to make a cake for it, which happened to be the same day of sing's death. tapp came home and saw the half finished cake in the fridge, the reality of what happened that day finally catching up to him. he tried to deny that sing was dead until that point. he realised that cake would remain unfinished forever.

do you guys think that sing wrote little notes on scrap pieces of paper and sticky notes and put them on tapp's desk. like little things saying "remember to drink water today :)", "take a break, okay?" and "reminder that we're going out for coffee at noon today!" and do you think that tapp kept them all, do you think he had a little box full of them and after sing's death he acted like they were the most valuable thing in the world. he'd take some out and read them, crying to himself, thinking that he might've still been alive if he didn't run after Jigsaw. he'd hold the notes tightly yet gently, not wanting to rip them or lose them because they were one of the only things he had left of sing. he'd try to keep as many of them as possible. everyday he'd go to his office and expect another little note that would never show up.

another tappsing post because why not. they go on coffee dates and sing enjoys putting his hand on tapp's and just listening to him talk, whether it's about the Jigsaw case or how his day was, he loves his voice. even if he interrupts him sing doesn't care because he gets to hear him

tappsing to me is either two things. one is a married couple who cuddle and have wine while watching their fav movie together. the other is two childhood best friends who are at that point where there's feelings involved and they have hooked up but are too scared to try become something more because they don't want to accidentally throw away years of friendship since they don't know if the other is interested in them like that so they're both just left pining, yearning, craving eachother until it's too late because of Sing's death.

tappsing is possibly the healthiest saw ship. they're a married couple who cuddle under blankets and make eachother soup when the other is feeling ill. they both know exactly how the other likes their coffee and every other little thing about them