Not to be a jerkwad or even a dead believer

on a whim I decided to delete tumblr from my phone and cut myself off from the website cold turkey, for a lot of reasons. mainly I feel like this website has siphoned an absolutely ridiculous amount of time from me over the past six years of my life. there are so many things that I want to do and I feel like I don’t have time to do, and not because I don’t have the free time, but because this website is just about the worst imaginable distraction. on top of that, I feel like all it’s done is become a source of anxiety for me. this site used to be an escape from the anxiety in my offline life, but since I’ve managed to eliminate so much of that anxiety and become a freer, more joyful person, this site has become less of an outlet and more of a suck that just makes me feel bad. I can anticipate that every time I come on here I’ll see some bullshit that pisses me off or makes me feel like shit. not that I think I or anyone else should be sheltered from that, but this place used to be relaxing and now it’s not.

also, I’ve had a few Actual Popular Posts now, and I could feel myself turning into someone who spent a LOT of time worrying about how I could make more popular posts, and how I could develop a schtick that would make me popular with more people on here, etc. etc. I’m not saying I’m some super genius who could and should inevitably expect ~funnyman popularity~ on this website, and I’m not saying anything about anyone who enjoys making jokes and being a popular blogger on here. that’s just something I really don’t see myself doing or wanting to do. dumping all this time into what is, in my particular situation and in my life, kind of a meaningless exercise when I could and definitely should be spending my time elsewhere on the things that might end up doing me tangible good is not something I want to do. and although it’s not something I could ever guarantee would happen to me, it’s something I could very easily see myself getting caught up in were it to happen.

of course, the thing I value most about this website is the people. I have met so many fucking cool people through here who I do NOT want to abandon just because I’m going cold turkey on tumblr. if you’re interested in getting in contact with me, either dm me on here or email me at charmingbrothers@gmail and we can discuss how else to keep in touch.

I just really need to get away from this website. the last two days have been a huge relief, on a level I could’ve barely contemplated before this. again it feels weird that I only have been away from here for two days, I’ve gotten so much accomplished and I’ve only felt the urge to return a couple of times.

please keep in touch. and if you feel like you should quit the blue hellsite but are addicted to it and need a sign that you can: this is your sign. fucking go for it. this site has a lot of fun on it but it’s also a giant drain.

partners help EACH OTHER. sometimes people have very valid reasons they can’t do those things, but they should also help YOU with things that are hard for you and easy for them, whether it’s basic emotional support, chores, paperwork, making phone calls, etc. if they say they ‘don’t know how’ to do something and expect you to do it instead of learning how to do it, they are not worth your time.

Wakanda is strong enough to help others and protect ourselves at the same time.