take control of my bowels

I'm Pan, it/its pronouns, mid 20s

Nonbinary, AFAB, post-top-surgery

I've been into inflation for many years, but I'm fairly new to the constipation/holding-it crowd. I think I've found my people lol.

Please send asks/questions/comments/replies what-have-you! I'd love to hear from others, and I want to make friends!

Stories, fantasies, encouragement, advise, tips and tricks, questions, all are welcome.

Things I'm into: ✅

inflation, bloating

stuffing

constipation

gas/farting (light descriptions of smells)

stomach gurgles/sounds

Peristalsis cramps

Intentionally causing stomach ache (lower digestional tract only)

laxatives

pooping (sensation)

holding, control over, forcing pee/poop

enemas

Things I'm not into but willing to talk about: 🙂

permanent weight gain

Nausea/vomiting

burping

messing

piss getting on things

ABDL

Things I do not want to encounter: 🚫

scat (touching, eating, texture, smell)

fantasies involving underage

Hello hello! 🥰🥰

Health has been up and down, but I think things are starting to ease up now? 😊

Sorry for the lack of posts again, I just haven’t had enough spoons for tumblr this last week, lol

But! I did make it the full two weeks with the laxatives!

I’m going to give things another day or so for my body to finish working through the last of it, and then I’m gonna see if I can finally achieve my dreams…

Expect some belly pics and vids, but probably still fewer text posts, since I’m still not back to 100%.

yooooooo ya dead? haha okay but actually pan, are things alright in the night?

Aaaaaahhh 🩷

Yeah no I’m alive. Don’t worry lol.

Sorry for the radio silence, it’s been an exhausting week.

Long story short, I’ve had a minor flare up of a chronic health condition. It’s nothing horrible, no need to worry, I’ve just been too tired to post 🫠 rip

I have been keeping up with the laxatives. I took bisacodyl until Thursday, and then I switched to senna, because the reaction was getting stronger and stronger even as I was decreasing the dose, and it was interfering with work. My assumption is the bisacodyl was contributing some to the flair up, too, since it’s known to cause inflammation.

I’m still sticking to the plan, two total weeks of laxatives to try and create that dependence. I’ll try to post more this week if I have the energy, but we’ll see.

Thank you for asking after me! 🥰🥰🥰

Good to know, good to know.

I actually have a package of sorbitol powder already, though I think my body is more reactive to maltitol, just based on past experiences…

I’ll probably run to the store in the next few days and grab some sugar free York peppermint patties, cause I’m pretty sure they stock them, and I do love those guys

Laxative update:

I'd also like to recommend sugar free chocolate truffles (I found some on amazon but I'm sure you can get them elsewhere too). I legit only had to eat like 1/4 of the pack and my belly let everything go a couple hours later (after some good gurgles!)

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I’ve been kinda in the process of clearing things today, lol, lots of small, gassy expulsions.

I’ll,definitely have to look into that, it sounds tasty—although, buying chocolates online this time of year may not be the wisest move, it’s regularly 90+ F (~34C) where I live lol 😅. I could look into candy less prone to melting, maybe.

Today marks the start of me doing two weeks of laxatives! I’m starting with 10mg bisacodyl in the morning and evening, and will likely increase the dosage and/or add in some senna depending on how I tolerate it.

I’ll also be able to do some fun things that I normally wouldn’t be able to do during holds, like air inflation.

Also, are any of you familiar with M&M enemas? (I know I haven’t talked much about enemas in here, so I guess I want to take y’all’s temperature before diving in.)

Like, I just barely managed to force it down without throwing up, and I’m still fairly nauseous🙂‍↕️. Probably won’t be able to do it again, so let’s enjoy it while it lasts!

What? Is something wrong? 😨

(thank you thank you 🥰🥰🥰🥰)

Guh… I feel so big… 😮‍💨🥵 Do I look big?

The time is almost upon us! In the morning, I’ll drink the castor oil, probably mixed with some orange juice, and at the same time take 10mg of bisacodyl. I’ll give it an hour or two, then take another 10mg. My hope is that it will start to kick in as I come down from the castor oil, leading to an explosive crampy ride all day long.

This will also kick off a two-week laxative regimen, in the hopes that I’ll have a greater rebound effect afterwards. I’ll probably take a combination of senna and bisacodyl, since I think I have a stronger reaction to the latter.

I plan to take the castor oil tomorrow morning before breakfast, cause it’s supposed to kick in faster when taken on an empty stomach.

Does anyone have any ideas or tips for making things even more crampy, or prolonging the effects?

Right now I’m considering loading up on fiber and sugar alcohols through the day. Maybe I’ll take some bisacodyl at the same time, with the hope that it kicks in just as the castor oil wears off.

I have plenty of food and gatorade ready, so I don’t need to worry about electrolyte imbalances.

If anyone has any thoughts, you can comment on this post, or shoot me an anon ask or dm! I’d love you hear your ideas!

dont let yourself clear it out so easily. dont you want the struggle? isnt that the whole point of this whole thing?

(of course do what you ultimately want)

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For me, I’m actually less interested in the struggle and more interested in like the loss of control.

That’s why I want to be actually constipated so bad. I want to be genuinely unable to release, for willpower not to matter, my body just doesn’t do it unless I push with everything I can, and even then, maybe I can only go with laxative assistance. The punishment comes from the betrayal of my body and the discomfort from being so huge and full, not from fighting the urges.

And that’s part of why I like laxatives, once you take them, you’re stuck on the ride. There’s nothing you can do to stop it early, you’re forced to deal with it until it runs its course.

Im doing the castor oil on Sunday cause I really really want to spend a whole day just getting completely messed up, just my entire lower digestive tract getting torn up by the laxative, everything exploding out of me in a giant crampy mess.

I’m gonna make sure I get all my chores for the week done tomorrow, so I can devote the whole day to concocting the biggest tummy ache imaginable. Maybe I’ll follow the castor oil with fiber and/or sugar alcohols to get as gassy as possible, too.

That said, I do have another decision for you all.

Woopsie! I took this last night, but fell asleep before I could post 😅

Did you still take a photo last night, despite your hold being interrupted? You can't just tell us you're pretty bloated and crampy and then leave us without the proof...

Also yet again I'm going to request that before the end of the hold, we get a video of you pressing and poking your firm belly so we see just how solid it is. Please.

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I did not take a photo unfortunately, I was really tired. 🙂‍↕️

I’ve been pretty bloated and crampy (and gurgly🤭) yesterday and this morning, but the urges have been very minor. I finished off the last of the rice and beef yesterday. Based on the timing, I’m pretty sure all of it is still inside me, that’s four cups of rice and two pounds of beef, plus everything else I’ve been eating since probably Saturday 🥵

I’ll be sure to post more pics and videos soon!

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I do like where your head is at friend, but unfortunately I’m not lactose intolerant. Dairy just doesn’t do anything to me, to my great frustration.