I'm in a silly, horny mood, so let's play a game. (adults only 🔞) anonymously send me one of your kinks and I'll write a drabble/one-shot/headcanon with that kink for Stolitz.
I'll write anything, even things I'm not into. I obviously reserve the right to not write something if it squicks me. Even then, I won't judge. Make me write shit that's out of my comfort zone. The weirder the better 👀
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Here's a random question, if you're still up for it: when you write fics, how much do you plan them beforehand? Do you make detailed outlines or just make it up as you go along?
I find that my writing process is mostly:
Get hit with a super random idea, scene, piece of dialogue or plot point
Make up an extremely vague storyline that contains the thing that hit me
Put the blorbos into the scene and see what happens
Don't forget the smut!
So I'm not much of a planning person myself 😅 Curious to know how others work it.
Hi! Omg I completely forgot to reply to this 😅 thanks for the ask!
The process you described here is so similar to how my writing process goes 😂 I am nooooot a planner. For long fics (which I don’t often write) I’ll have some semblance of a vague outline, usually just for the next chapter or two, as well as a vibe for what kind of ending I want (happy, sad, bittersweet, etc), but that’s it. I keep a document where I write down all the random thoughts, bits of dialogue, lore, etc. as I come up with those things, but half the time I don’t even know when or even IF the things I’ve jotted down will even make it into the fic.
To give you an idea, if you’ve read my tattoo shop AU, when I was writing chapter 8 (where their date goes wrong because Stolas won’t invite him home and Blitz starts spiralling), I knew that I wanted the next two story beats to be “Blitz goes to Stolas’ house and finds out what a mess Stolas is/takes care of him” and “Blitz goes pick up Octavia and brings her back to Stolas” (chapters 9 and 10 respectively, the latter of which I’m currently writing).
I had a lot of ideas for what I wanted to happen in Stolas’ house, and I have a bunch of ideas for what I want to happen in the car ride with Blitz and Octavia, but… how the scenes actually develop and come to life is something I actively figure out as I write them. And as for chapters 11 and onwards? All I’ve got right now are vague ideas and random semi-coherent thoughts. I have no clue what specifically is gonna happen in chapter 11 yet 😂 I’m sure I’ll figure it out as I write chapter 10.
I write one-shots much more frequently, and with those, my writing process is mostly “oh hey I just had a random specific idea, gonna write that” and then I sit down and I do, no planning or anything. I just let it take me wherever it wants. Half the time I don’t even finish the fic, and if I do, I post it lmao
I’m also curious to know how others do it, if anyone wants to share!
Ok ok let's do Sleepover Saturday again, except this time you can just send me whatever asks you want, AND also if you send me a feather 🪶 I will add three sentences to my WIP. Make me write!
I'll also be replying to older asks that have been sitting in my inbox ^-^'
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(long rant about Stolas, Verosika, and how Blitz was wronged)
This may be an unpopular opinion, but I think that the characters in the Hellaverse hugely overdramatize how “bad” Blitzø is morally as a person. I fear he’s not even breaking the top 30 worst individuals they’ve encountered.
I’m sorry, but if a breakup (not including abuse or cheating survivors) is the worst thing that’s ever happened to you, and you feel the need to throw an entire party dedicated to hating that person, you’ve lived a privileged life and are being incredibly petty. Verosika was acting like a 16-year-old girl experiencing heartbreak for the first time. It’s honestly pretty pathetic and childish how she handled the situation.
And honestly, what did he really fuckin’ do anyway? Exercise his right to end relationships he was a part of?
I’m not trying to excuse him stealing from Verosika and completely abandoning her in a moment of vulnerability, but I’m also sure that Blitzø leaving her wasn’t the main reason she felt so betrayed that she was enraged enough to throw a party dedicated to hating him. She has most definitely been burned before, and Blitzø was likely the first person in a long time she allowed herself to trust.
Now, moving on to the shit that happened with Stolas. Their falling out was so obviously a case where both parties were at fault. Stolas was racist; Blitzø was an inconsiderate asshole. They both hugely disregarded each other’s feelings, and they both hated themselves so much that they couldn’t imagine the other having genuine feelings for them.
So why did Blitzø get an entire episode dedicated to slandering him for what happened between the two of them, and why is he repeatedly blamed for it by the other characters—and by himself—when it was very obviously not only his fault?
Now, Blitzø definitely screamed at Stolas and told him off, but the show has made it abundantly clear that that was wrong and that we’re supposed to feel bad for Stolas. But then Stolas proceeds to do basically the same thing, except instead of doing it privately and directly to Blitzø’s face, he does it in front of a crowd.
Imagine being Blitzø, standing in that crowd, experiencing absolute whiplash and almost a kind of confirmation that you were right to believe this dude was lying to you. He had just told you how much he cared about you and how much he wanted you to stay with him, and then he had the capacity to stand alongside one of your biggest regrets—someone you already feel horrible for hurting—and listen to him sing his heart out about how much you suck.
This is also the same guy who made racist remarks to you in front of your family, who are also members of the race he was mocking, btw.
I’m not saying all of this to put down Stolas or make Blitzø seem perfect. I’m just trying to say that the reactions he had weren’t out of left field.
(Adding an even longer rant of my own as a reply to this post and its comments. Hope this doesn't come across as rude, I'm genuinely just yapping because I am a literary analysis nerd with many thoughts 😂).
I don't think it's a case of some characters (in this case, Stolas) being favoured by the narrative, as someone in a comment stated, though I understand why it can feel that way at this point in time. The narrative has neither forgotten nor excused Stolas' shortcomings and mistakes; it is simply still setting up a scenario in which he can realise the specific ways in which he fucked up.
Stolas wasn't ready to have those realisations before: not from his mansion, where he was catered to, isolated, abused, and physically distanced from the lives of the less privileged denizens of Hell. Stolas has never had bad intentions: he's always wanted to understand Blitz and be an equal with him. What Stolas has always had—the reason for his fuck-ups—were gaps in his perception and experience the size of a fucking blue whale. Thus, in order for him to understand Blitz, his privilege had to be taken away first. Now that he's been made to become a part of Blitz's life and crew, the events of S3 can swiftly flow in a direction where he can become viscerally aware of what life in Hell is like for the lower classes, and thus self-reflect and discuss his past behaviours and hold himself accountable for them.
Which... he's dying to do! Both in Full Moon and Apology Tour, he actively asks himself: "am I still naive?" and "Is there something for Blitz to teach that I still need to learn?" Obviously, in the moment Verosika and Tex answer the latter question with "no, he's just a motherfucker" and, sure, the episode leaves it at that; but that doesn't mean the show at large has left it at that. What the narrative is doing is the opposite of leaving it at that: it's planting all of the different seeds for Stolas' growth and accountability to happen in future episodes. It's telling us: "Look! Look here! Stolas has zero understanding of what he did wrong or how to veer course!"; "but Stolas perceives he might have done something wrong and is desperately trying to untangle the mess in his mind to figure it out, he just lacks the tools to do it, and is getting nowhere on his own".
In Sinsmas, when Stolas complains about having to work on a holiday and Blitz lightly calls him out on his privilege, that's the narrative planting another seed. In this case, it's telling us: "Stolas might have lost his privilege, but that was only the first step of many that he has yet to take. He still has zero perception of what life is like for Blitz." And it's not a final statement. It's not the end of the line. It's more like a little flag on the road. A flag to help mark where he is in the progress line of his character arc at this point in time, which is further away than he was before losing his powers (because prior to losing them he wouldn't even have been physically present to gain the knowledge that there are people who have to work on their holidays), but very far away from where he has the potential to be.
You know, something that stands out to me about Helluva Boss is that, whenever there's a hiatus, you see quite a lot of people online expressing frustration with the things they feel the show has left unaddressed, or with narrative beats they felt were unsatisfying.
For anyone who wasn't around at the time, there was quite a long hiatus after Seeing Stars. At that point, Queen Bee hadn't come out, because they were working out the copyright issues with Kesha's voice. So the situation was as follows: for a long while, Ozzie's was the last episode of Helluva Boss. Obviously, people's hearts were broken, and the pressing question was, what's gonna happen next with these two? Then, after a few months, we get The Circus. A direct continuation of Ozzie's, which also provides copious amounts of additional background as flashbacks... But zero resolution for the actual Ozzie's conflict, which is still left hanging heavily in the air.
And then we get Seeing Stars. And then nothing after that for like eight months.
People gave up on the show. People left the fandom. Seeing Stars was hated by many. Because people felt the show had simply decided to "ignore" Ozzie's and pretend like nothing had happened; because seeing Stolitz interact again in an episode that's kind of a silly Earth adventure, without addressing Ozzie's at all, was jarring. Like... "That's it? We're just moving past it? Like nothing happened? What a waste. That's so unsatisfying. I'm out. I don't care anymore."
Obviously, anyone who's still around knows the show did in fact address Ozzie's, partly at least (I don't doubt we're still coming back to that disastrous evening). We saw in Western Energy how their deal was put on hold as Stolas tried to navigate Blitz's feelings while Blitz seemingly gave him nothing to work with over text. We saw Stolas sit in Asmodeus' waiting room and ask for a crystal for Blitz because he wasn't sure if his feelings were mutual. We saw Full Moon, where Stolas ended the deal as a direct consequence of Ozzie's, and everything that happened afterwards. More subtly, we also saw how Blitz stopped trying to insert himself in M&M's marriage after Ozzie's. We also then got Queen Bee (which iirc aired around the same time as Western Energy), which gave some more insight into Blitz's side of things after Ozzie's.
What I'm trying to say is this show loves to plant seeds and not immediately address them. Just because Stolas and Blitz pretended nothing happened on their first encounter after Ozzie's, it doesn't mean they weren't both thinking about it, haunted by it, changing their behaviour behind the scenes because of it, and slowly letting it simmer until it inevitably boiled over and burned them.
This isn't different! The show hasn't forgotten any of the mistakes Stolas has made, and all of the seeds I mentioned above are just some of the signs the narrative has given us in late season 2 that Stolas' realisation of the exact ways in which his privilege made him fuck up is something we're slowly building up towards. They're taking their time so they can introduce all the puzzle pieces in a way that makes it inevitable for them to come together at a later time.
Even Verosika, to a lesser extent, has had this happen! Her behaviour in Apology Tour is not going to go unaddressed. Proof of this is the fact we were shown her shock and distress when she saw Blitz about to be executed, and when Stolas saved him. This is a wake-up call for her that the narrative will return to at a later date.
I think the reason Apology Tour was written to make the viewer feel so viscerally like "Verosika and Stolas are correct and justified, and Blitz does actually suck and deserve to be hated to this extent" is because the party is meant to be seen through Blitz's eyes, and at that moment, that's how he sees himself. That's how he perceives the entire thing. As fair. As understandable. He sees himself as someone who entirely ruins people's lives. It's setting up for Ghostfuckers, in a way: for him to learn that no matter how self-destructive he gets, his crew will be there for him, and that no matter how much he thinks he ruins everyone's lives, he can't change the fact there are people (eg. Millie) who he's saved, and whose lives he's changed for the better.
Ghostfuckers was just the first piece of the Apology Tour resolution: an introduction for Blitz to the idea that his self perception is not an objective truth, no matter how much he felt like Verosika's party confirmed his worst fears about himself. There will be more pieces. Both Stolas and Verosika will likely confront and take accountability for the hurt they caused Blitz. They just haven't yet because getting there is a process that we're currently in the early stages of.
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TL;DR: Apology Tour is the new Ozzie's, in that it is an episode that set certain intense emotional beats into motion that—in many ways—weren't immediately addressed. That doesn't mean they'll never be. More seeds need to be planted first so the resolution feels narratively organic and satisfying.
Lol, I did NOT expect that last Hellaverse post I made to get that many likes and reblogs, but thanks, I really appreciate it! 🥰
On a side note, because we now have the release date for Part 1 of Season 3 of Helluva Boss, I’ve already got started on the script for the Stolas video I mentioned some time ago. Currently rewatching Loo Loo Land, and very quickly, I remember that this was the episode that made me fall in love with Helluva Boss in the first place.
Stolas' budding S3 arc: his relationship with want, shame, and queer liberation
So. About that Helluva Boss season 3 clip.
There is so much to unpack for a clip that's less than 2 minutes long, which is not surprising for Helluva Boss. But today, I want to delve into this particular line from Stolas' imaginary version of Blitz, which gave me a lot to think about:
On a surface level, this is your typical, trope-y smut scene: the romantic interest meets the main character and is so allured by them he cannot control himself. As he throws himself onto the MC, he teases the MC about how obvious it is that they want this. In smut, this teasing can take many forms: think "I can smell your arousal" in omegaverse or the more generic (and physiologically realistic) "you're blushing so hard, you're breathing so fast, you're not resisting me at all, you're so wet/hard for me already".
Stolas' fantasy plays with their power imbalance: despite having visible pupils and a hair streak, this is still a royal self-insert; one with magical power. Indeed, if he didn't want Blitz to be touching him, Stolas could easily overpower him and get Blitz off of him. But he doesn't, because he does want Blitz, because that's the whole point of this kind of smutty fantasy. So Blitz teases him about it.
Without the context of the rest of the show, Stolas' fantasy is... actually pretty generic, with the exception of the details that signify their particular likes (ie. horses, plants, and blonde wigs).
But with two seasons worth of context, I find Stolas' sexual fantasy tells us quite a bit about the emotions Stolas is currently struggling with, both in his past and present relationship with Blitz and in his life at large.
So let's dive in.
Stolas was never allowed to want.
From an early age, his life was planned out for him. A wife and an heir and a Grimoire to find prophecies in the sky: those were the purpose of his existence. Whether he wanted those things was irrelevant, because his life was not his to design.
And he stayed compliant... until Blitz came (and came, if you know what I mean) along. And Stolas let himself want. Even though it wasn't for him to make that decision, as far as the Goetia were concerned. Even though it'd have real-life consequences and ramifications. Stolas was drunk, and sick of Stella's mockery and of being the laughing stock of her social circles, so he took Blitz to his chambers and flirted with him, and when Blitz restrained him on the bed, Stolas allowed it and expressed how much he wanted to be fucked by Blitz. And then he got ravished.
And it was the most liberating moment of his life. Not just that: it was the decision that set him on the path to mental, physical, emotional, social, marital, and sexual liberation he's still currently in the middle of as of the beginning of season 3. From the moment Stolas fucked Blitz, he was no longer living a life designed by someone else: he was, at long last, becoming the master of his fate.
And that led him to establishing the full moon deal. To loaning Blitz the Grimoire. To a period of joy where he truly believed he had something real with Blitz. To the crushing events of Ozzie's, and to giving Blitz the crystal to right his mistake. To facing Satan in court.
To losing everything. To losing Octavia.
Stolas feels more than just guilt for wanting.
He's expressed before, particularly at the end of Sinsmas, that he's well aware he's responsible for the consequences of his choices. But I think this new clip sheds light on something darker and deeper than guilt: I think it sheds light on shame.
"If you wanted me to stop, we both know you could stop me, but you want to get filthy, don't you?" Those are the words Stolas puts on fantasy-Blitz's mouth. So let's unpack them.
"If you wanted me to stop"
A conditional sentence. If you wanted me to stop. But that's not what Stolas wants.
The words, while teasing, are also an accusation: "You're into this even though it's wrong, even though it's filthy. You should want me to stop, but you don't. That's how dirty you are."
And what that means for Stolas is that he feels deeply that his desire for Blitz is dark, it's wrong. That he wants something he shouldn't.
(This internalised shame is also alluded to in Just Look My Way, where he refers to his desire for Blitz as a "dark temptation").
"We both know you could stop me"
Those words weren't chosen lightly. They are load-bearing, because they establish that it is mutually understood that Stolas holds all the power in their dynamic. Therefore, Blitz can do pretty much whatever he wants, and it is on Stolas to set the limit and put a stop to anything he doesn't want happening. From Stolas' perspective, their relationship, both sexual and sentimental, continued to develop as a direct consequence of Stolas' failure to put an end to it.
This sentiment is not new:
"I let you get to close. I let it go too far. I let it go too long. I let you go too deep." It's all "I, I, I". Implying it was on Stolas to know better, and thus he's solely responsible for how far things went.
It's a sentiment that removes all agency and responsibility from Blitz and places it on Stolas' shoulders. It reframes their deal not as the product of the decisions of two adults equally willing to risk the potential consequences, but as the product of Stolas' selfish choice to get what he wanted. From Stolas' perspective, Blitz is merely operating on the basis that things will only go as far as Stolas allows them to go, and it is entirely on Stolas to draw the lines he isn't willing to cross.
"But you want to get filthy, don't you?"
There's a choice being given here, and it's Stolas' to make: he can either stop Blitz, or allow him to continue. It is implied, particularly through the word choice of filthy, that the correct choice would be for Stolas to restrain himself. But he won't, and fantasy-Blitz knows it: he knows Stolas will choose not to stop him, because Stolas wants to get filthy, wants to follow the wrong path, consequences be damned.
It's what he did in his real life, afrer all. Stolas had a choice not to let Blitz use the Grimoire. They both knew if Stolas didn't want Blitz to take it, he could've taken it back with a snap of his fingers and never looked back. But Stolas, for the first time in his life, prioritised his sexual, romantic, and emotional needs, and so he allowed Blitz to use the Grimoire. And because of that, they both ended up in a mess that led to Blitz almost dying and to Stolas losing Octavia.
The conclusion Stolas drew from this was: "all I had to do was restrain myself, all I had to do was suck it up and never act on my desires, and I wouldn't have caused this mess."
(Or, as Ozzie put it: "you had it all! I hope you didn't give it up so you and him could get it up... you sold your life for a thrust.")
This fantasy he's crafted, though very trope-y on a surface level, turns the guilt Stolas expressed in Apology Tour and Sinsmas on its axis and shows us what's bubbling underneath: a deep-rooted sense of sexual shame.
Stolas has been systematically deprived of agency.
If you wanted me to stop, we both know you could stop me, but you want to get filthy, don't you?
Do they both know that, though? Are they equally aware that Stolas could stop Blitz? In the most literal sense, the answer is yes. After all, the entirety of their BDSM dynamic hinges on the fact that Stolas is practically indestructible, and could free himself from all restraints and force Blitz out of his home with a wave of his hand, if he felt actually threatened or uncomfortable in any way.
But chances are high Andrealphus' comments in Satan's court about how weak Stolas is weren't a one-time thing. After all, every Goetia in that court (except for Vassago) was willing to accept that Stolas, despite his immense magical power, was too weak to even withstand being in the presence of his supposed abuser. An abuser who was a magically powerless imp, yet who had still supposedly managed to rape him.
It seems to be that everyone in the Goetic social circles believes Stolas to have an extremely weak and passive character, to be pathetic in his inability to stand up for himself and ultimately unfit for his role as a prince.
And I think Stolas' fantasy is also, to some extent, a reflection of how Stolas has internalised the same ideas about himself. "We both know you could stop me (implied: but you won't)." And why won't he? Why didn't he stop Blitz from fucking him that first night, why didn't he stop Blitz from taking the Grimoire? Was it mere selfishness? Was it him being blinded by love or lust? Was it complete and utter idiocy?
Or... was it something else? Weakness, perhaps? A confirmation of what his family has always said about him—that he's not good enough, that he doesn't have what it takes to make sound choices? And is this line from fantasy-Blitz really just a trope-y pick-up line, or could it be pointing towards Stolas' perceived weakness and passivity? A perceived tendency to just let things happen to him, to let inaction be his choice?
Stolas is going to unlearn his shame.
At the end of the clip, Stolas angrily crosses out his fanfic in a moment that clearly parallels his crashout in Sinsmas, when he berated himself for messing everything up for a "stupid, foolish fantasy".
Yet isn't it funny how, later in Sinsmas, Stolas' desire for a romantic fantasy is rewarded when Blitz becomes his knight in shining armour and saves him from the dragon?
I strongly believe that moment in Sinsmas was the beginning of an arc the seeds of which are still being planted. An arc wherein Stolas learns he was always allowed to want. That he was right for wanting to be free. For choosing Blitz; for choosing himself. Sure, the way he went about it wasn't great—and he's already well into the process of unpacking and making up for the pain he caused—but there was nothing wrong with the act itself of pursuing his sexual (and overall) liberation.
He grew up neglected and abused. He was raised in a cult that had no care for his personhood and assigned him a role he was never meant to stray from. He was forced into a heterosexual marriage despite being gay and—in my opinion, though that's a different post—sexually assaulted by his wife. He was forced to become a father and to live the rest of his life secluded in a palace, where he wouldn't be a nuisance to anyone else.
Him breaking free of that is a good thing. His is a story of radical queer liberation. He went from barely existing—from being a ghost, a living corpse, quietly fading away, chained by abuse and societal pressure—to breaking free and claiming his own life, his body, his sexuality, his heart. Saying, "fuck this, fuck everything, I want to live."
And the narrative, while holding him accountable for the ways in which he was careless and tone-deaf and naive, rewarded him for wanting to be loved and wanted and desired. It rewarded him—and, from what we've seen in the teaser and Millie's words to him, will continue to reward him—for wanting to be cherished and cared for and wanted around.
And the narrative will continue to prove his shame wrong. It will continue to reward his desire to be queer, and happy, and free. And Stolas is going to learn there was never anything wrong with wanting out of his gilded cage. There was never anything wrong with wanting.
He deserves happiness. He deserves joy. He deserves love, and freedom, and sex, and kink, and laughter, and queerness, and friends, and safety, and fun. He deserves to be the protagonist of his dream romantic comedy and have all of his dreams come true. (And he deserves to make amends with his daughter, though that's also for another post).
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what if stolas does age now, but goetia rebelling and being banished with their powers taken away isn't a thing that ever happens so the court just straight up didn't realies that would happen 👀 banished for 100 years but he might not even make it that long
I have definitely thought about this before 👀 wonder if they will tackle it in the show at all!