Blinking Emot!on

I’m still awake. I don’t know how many people are in the next room. But, tonight, I don’t seem to care. 

What’s it called when your crush likes you back? Imagination.

I know I had tons of assignments that needed to be done, but I also needed to get some exercise in for myself. I had been constantly thinking about going to the gym, yet it still hadn’t happened. And no matter what I did, I couldn’t get a single person to go with me. With all the things that have been happening, I really didn’t feel like it was a bright idea to go alone. But as I kept looking up at the time, I realized that it was getting later. And later meant more danger, so I either had to go now or never. Eff it. I’m going.

I have gone through hundreds of ways that I can say something, or more like the things I could say. After these past months, though, I felt like there was nothing I could do or say to make things better. I mean ... I really didn’t do anything, and maybe that’s where I went wrong. But I tried to do something by asking, and I got nothing in return. Rejection blows. And so does denial. 

I find myself anywhere but class these days (mentally of-course). Going through the whole repair of my laptop made me realize that I did not really lose something, besides my money. I just did not want to get my coursework done, and I was finding any possible way not to. Thus, here I am.