It's just... I think this year's experiences for me have been a culmination of "so when CAN we talk about antiblackness?" Because every time you bring it up, it's treated as a conspiracy- because surely no one could Genuinely Care about something so Trivial when there are More Important Things at Stake!
And instead of just outright saying "we don't wanna hear you talk about it at all because we don't care/we benefit" (because that wouldn't fit the Good Person Image) it's always treated as bad timing or bad expression.
So when is the time. When will be a good time to talk about the increasingly overt and growing presence of the antiblackness in the room. Or is the enforced policing of Black voices the preferred state of things here, to maintain nonblack comfort at all costs. Bc I wish y'all would just say that instead of all this other shenaniganery.
