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So, a few posts ago, I said I was going to be restarting this blog. I said this in October I think? And I said it’d be done in a month. Clearly, this…. This hasn’t happened. I actually have most of the art done. Did months ago. And while I’ve been itching to role play….. I haven’t…. Wanted to do it…. Here. Tumblr as a web sight has changed sense I left. I honestly can’t see any rp on my dash anymore. Like… It’s vanished. And that makes me sad. Because just reading some of that stuff was really cool! Even if I wasn’t an active participant. It was awesome. I’m not going to detail what old tumblr was like, there’s probably 1000 posts for that already. This is about this blog and….

Saying goodbye.

I know wasn’t the best writer, and i’m probably known for my violent and dark role plays. I really…don’t know. But that doesn’t matter because I made some wonderful friends here! Who May never see this….

This is extremely difficult for me, and I had hoped this day would never come. But tumblr isn’t my home anymore.

I don’t really know who looks at this page anymore or who knew about my side blogs, but if you were checking up on me, and you did know about those 2 things you noticed that the don’t exist any more. But don’t panic. Because I’m leaving this blog here the way it is. In all of my 15-17 year old….ness. I want those good friends I talked about earlier to be able to find me. Which brings me to my next point.

I’ve started up a few things which will be related to blade. I intend on using my kik ( So, a few posts ago, I said I was going to be restarting this blog. I said this in October I think? And I said it’d be done in a month. Clearly, this…. This hasn’t happened. I actually have most of the art done. Did months ago. And while I’ve been itching to role play….. I haven’t…. Wanted to do it…. Here. Tumblr as a web sight has changed sense I left. I honestly can’t see any rp on my dash anymore. Like… It’s vanished. And that makes me sad. Because just reading some of that stuff was really cool! Even if I wasn’t an active participant. It was awesome. I’m not going to detail what old tumblr was like, there’s probably 1000 posts for that already. This is about this blog and….

Saying goodbye.

I know wasn’t the best writer, and i’m probably known for my violent and dark role plays. I really…don’t know. But that doesn’t matter because I made some wonderful friends here! Who May never see this….

This is extremely difficult for me, and I had hoped this day would never come. But tumblr isn’t my home anymore.

I don’t really know who looks at this page anymore or who knew about my side blogs, but if you were checking up on me, and you did know about those 2 things you noticed that the don’t exist any more. But don’t panic. Because I’m leaving this blog here the way it is. In all of my 14-16 year old….ness. I want those good friends I talked about earlier to be able to find me. Which brings me to my next point.

I’ve started up a few things which will be related to blade. I intend on using my kik (bladethebot) for role play. It’s not perfect, but it will do until I find a new home for blade and the crushers. And even if you don’t want role play, please! Feel free to talk to me at anytime of the day. Or night or…. Whatever. You get the idea.

Next is my Instagram which has the new designs for blade and the crew that I had done. It’s got other stuff that you may or may not like. I honestly don’t know.

And finally, and probably the least related to blade, is my YouTube music channel. Where I intend on using him as my mascot. I’m not going to link it because of how not relevant it is. You want it? Ask. Blogs not going anywhere, app is gonna stay on my phone.

Now truthfully that’s all I’ve got. No more information. So if that’s what your here for, this is your stop. If not. I’ve got things I wanna share. Like where blade comes from. How I discovered tumblr. What happened to me and shortstop-mun. What my first rp was. What my favorite rp was. Any who I can remember of my friends. I want to leave tumblr on a happy note, and sense this is the last time I’m planning on posting? I say why the hell not. If your still here, let’s get started.

Okay so first blade’s origin. All the back story and other stuff that came after I found a piece of art on Dragonart.com. I took it (without asking) and went into mspaint. (windows 7 vet I think) on my mother’s computer. It took me a month to finish, but was done as was so proud of it I made 6 different versions of it! But why did I steal this piece of art? We’ll, that’s the next part.

So the first time I saw tumblr was I was looking for a drawing of Rachet from tfp. And I found this little. Comic of rach. And ready it and when and into the blog and found more. and from there I dug around the sight and eventually decided I want to do this thing where I became someone else. But I didn’t really want to role play any of the tfp cast because I felt my personally didn’t match them so well. So I made blade. He didn’t have a story for about a week in, and at the time, (when I started) the art wasn’t done. Quntison (a name I made up) Theia (a name I thought I made up) and doc (the only one with a personality aside from Blade) and when at it. I then spend the next few months making them.

I honestly don’t remember my first post. But my first rp? That was with ask-nitra. And it was just blade and the team crashing one earth and doing….. I don’t remember what happened after that. Following that I proceeded to bug annoy the ever living god out of her! (nitra mum, if your reading this, I am so sorry! i mean that from the bottom of my heart! And sorry if I misspelled your name. ) after a month of that she told me to quit spamming her ask box. And it made me sad at the time, but little did I know that leaving nitra would be great for both me and my blog!

So from there I meant a few cool people, Cassette, spark(? I can’t actually remember her name.) house of dragons ( but I knew her and her sister by a different name, ) sonica , stardust, and rolfcopterbot, aka blades. (I’ll talk more about these people later, as they do mean slot to me, but, I honestly don’t know where most of them fit on the time line. Otherwise I would.) I dedicate a large chunk of this post to this next person, but actually, a large chunk of my time here was great tell then.

and then…. Shortstop. Shortstop was to me as I was to nitra. except because I myself was still new, ( the blog was maybe year… Year and half old? IDK. There’s an archive for a reason.) I didn’t mind it. For about a month my blade became nothing but me and her. She wanted to be around me, so…..you know. And then I did something I kinda regret now. I… I started dating her. (mun on mun love if you know what I mean.) but honestly dating her? I think it might have been the first nail in this blog coffin. You understand in a minute. At first, dating her was great! I loved her and vice. But then something happened in her really life (I don’t know what so dont ask.) maybe she changed or maybe I did I don’t know, but she went from being cute and loving to tough and gritty. Did I mention fucking crazy? But I but that ‘didn’t matter’ and I 'still cared about her’….but frankly? At that point I think she quit caring. Why do I say that? Because months when by without her saying a word. Yeah, I hung out with others, but damn it she was my girlfriend! So I could not fucking let her go! It caused me to worry endlessly. To the point where there were nights I could sleep. After that she broke up with me. It might have been the super long message I wrote on my way to school one day telling her how much I missed her. After the break up We stayed best friend, and I still very much loved her, I thought we’d be able to get back together. And up until writing this I didn’t think about it, but, I think that killed our friend ship as she when back to her ways ignoring. Thats my opinion. I’ll let you decide for yourself.

After another very long message and more waiting, I came to the conclusion that she wasn’t coming back. It wasn’t a sudden realization. But when it did sink in I was sent in to the start of another very long depression. And the blog? It began the trip to meet lady death. I didn’t sign into tumblr for literally months.

But I did try and come back. I tried super hard to back, but none of them succeed. The longest 'come back ’ lasted maybe 2 months. but quiting was a quite a shame, because my blog was almost at 300 then I think I was literally at 298 when I dropped. IDK. Maybe the role play community would have lived a little longer if I had be able to stay. And to anyone who ever believed in me and blade, I am so sorry for disappointing you. I’m sorry for all my mistakes. To anyone I hurt whether it’s this post, or something I said to you long ago. I’m sorry. From me to you? Bottom of my heart? I’m sorry. I…. Wonder what the community would have been like if I hadn’t been here. For those who I should have inspired, ( a person, mind you, who will never read this.) I’m sorry. And to for a reason that I don’t have listed here, I’m sorry, although I don’t know what it is or why I’m apologizing. And finally, this post has got to be huge! So sorry for covering you dash.

But I like I said when I started this half of the post, I want to end on a positive note. So I’ll talk about my favorite rp. I actually have 2. I’ll give you the 2ldr version. So the first was with a person I don’t remember the name of but basically, it detailed blade’s history on Cybertron after his enslavement, and what happened after he left nitra. I Ioved that one! And the other was with rolfcopterbot and basically the rp was: zombies. That’s it. It was ducking fun as hell.

OK. Last thing before I go. I wanna talk about all my friends I mentioned before.

cassette: an orange medical bot. And she was very nice to talk to. Shes actually where blade’s rage mode and yellow paint came from.

Sparks: was a tiny cute boy and the only person to join the crushers that I didn’t make. Her mun was…..shy. (and nice. Don’t have another word for that.)

House of dragons: i knew as a white haired shape-shifting little girl. Blade built her a Mech suit like a gundam, but smaller. I thought it was cool. I forgot her name. Her and her mum were outgoing and just sweet.

House of dragons sister: she played a big blue avatar back then. I don’t remember what that character was like. But the mun was a great deal like her sister. Is it wrong that I would actually get confused trying to figure out which one was talking?

Sonica: was a girl in Spain that I enjoyed talking with In rp and in mun to mun. Back then there was a event back then called 'shatterday’. Where your character would turn into there polar opposite. And so shatter-blade aka nightmare would go to her and wreck her shit. why? To mess with blade.

Stardust: she was a character the was a mercenary with pretty wings. All I remember is the character was a blade lover (the only other one. ) and was ducking badass. She had a huge sniper Rifle. She ended up restarting the character but made new character (on Skype) just for blade. It was fucking awesome. (just clearing something up here, the characters were in love. The muns were not.) god is love to be able to talk to her again, even if I just got a few minutes.

Rolfcopterbot: sigh where do I even start with this one….. The character thus person rped as was blades from tfrb. And her portrayally of this character was spot on. It was amazing! Like seriously. Rolfcopterbot was the reason I started watching the show. See my icon? Rolf made that. She is just a really cool person. If the community does ever come back, and you did read this for…. Some strange reason go check out her blog. She’s super cool.

I wanted to thank every person on this list. Just for being there. just for letting me bug you. Just for listening to what I had to say. Thank you. Thank you for everything.

And if you followed me on this trip, even if it was just for this post, thank you too. Every person. who ever hit that follow button. dropped a like. Sent an ask. Or rebloged by bull. Thank you. Your contribution meant tons to me.

But alas, this is the last stop. There is next to no chance I will be using this blog again so…… Yeah…. Like this post my trip was full of typos. And mistakes. It was up. It was down. But that doesn’t mean it was bad. And I may regret parts if things I did here, I wouldn’t have said “let’s this be removed entirely from me because I fucked a few things up!” I wish you all the best. I wish I could have been bigger and better than I was. And again. If you want to talk the things I have listed you can contact me on.