A Black in Europe

Indeed.

Yes, I wrote why here. (I’m not going to deactivate it for the moment because then my latest posts would vanish.)

I don’t know how to make amends really. I’m tearing up my blog at the moment. I don’t really know what else to do.

I got a lot of asks from racists, but most were anonymous. This one was sent maybe a year or so ago, and I ignored it because I was a coward.

I think this person might have changed since she sent this message, I'm not sure. I know, however, that my activities in blogging perpetuated this sort of hatred. I don’t hate this person any more, I wouldn't say I deserved to receive such a message but I understand her hatred now.

Ask saved up from probably about two years ago.

I never impregnated any women. When I said I didn’t wear a condom I was lying unless the woman gave consent. I always wore a condom otherwise.

This person is not Black, I guarantee it. I got anonymous asks from this person every few days for several weeks last year, and it was laughably obvious that they were made up. They would follow the same formula every time. Here’s a few of them in my inbox -

See how they follow the same formula every time?

When I called him out on it, he sent even more and then stopped suddenly.

Thanks for your understanding and support too.

There is indeed nothing wrong with role play. But 90% of the interracial-themed blogs on Tumblr simply take it too far. Years ago to participate in this sort of role play you would have to meet real people. I’ve read stories of people who have done this and realised how stupid their fetish was. 

I had a lot of messages I stored up and couldn’t be bothered to answer. For some reason I just never deleted them.

This is a long read but I would like anyone who stumbles across it, whether you know me or not, to read it. It will take a maximum of ten minutes, probably. It’s a bit of a stream of consciousness.

I have sat and thought a lot in the past few days, weeks and months about who I should be as a person and how I will look back on myself when I am old.

For a long time I have dealt with hatred against White people as a result of my upbringing. My parents disliked them, and so did I. Despite the fact both were wealthy, my father hated White people for the apparent economic deprivation they had brought to Black people. This translated over to me. I had the best upbringing in terms of education for the world of work, but it seems they left out the one thing that one needs for the world of humanity, love.

After several months I have come to the conclusion that I no longer hate White people. They are fine. 99% are fine. 1% go and join the KKK or shoot Black people or whatever, but that’s problems for another day.

I need to address this blog. Although I have not always been very active on it, it has been a constant feature of my life. I have updated it with stories of one travelling holiday I took through Europe. They were based off photographs and writings. They were also just stories. They were twisted and manipulated until they hardly fitted the truth. Sorry. I had sex with some White women, true. Race did not really come into it. I wanted it to, but it didn’t.

Most of the apparent “academic” posts on here are complete lies. End of. Don’t believe them. 

The historical one I posted last month has a grain of truth in it, but that’s it.

The fact this “interracial” culture is very unhealthy. Me, I have a sex life, but when I’m single - which has been for a while now, unsurprisingly - I masturbate to interracial porn a lot. I’m presuming most of the White men who follow me do even more. It’s not healthy, mentally.

The whole cuckold, and indeed interracial, lifestyle is terrible. It encourages the view of Black men as hyper-sexual beings who are stupid and brutish. This is not the truth. I was part of this, and for that I truly apologise. Cuckold porn is also awful in how it portrays White women as beings only driven by lust. And the whole thing is a self-affirming cycle as the man believes himself a “loser,” so masturbates more, which makes him (in his mind) even more of a “loser.”

Cuckold porn, and the subcultures that surround it, is overwhelmingly racist and built upon lies.

I’m attaching a conversation I had with a “cuckold” a few months ago. I’d say it was one of the things that began to tip me over the edge (combined with many other things). This was when I still hated White people.

Here it is. This poor guy was very far gone, and I didn’t help him as much as I should have. I hope he’s better now.

I get messages like this every week.

I also got a message from a Black Lives Matter supporter who rightfully told me what a piece of shit I was for objectifying White women and Black men like this. I don’t know if it was legitimate, but they were right.

I’m sorry for all my “fans” who will be sad with my departure. No doubt many of you will create fake accounts for imaginary Swedish women to fill the void. Use reverse image search, it’s not hard, and you’ll see so many profiles are fake. It’s not surprising. I know of one prominent user who uses a Russian girl’s photos, yet pretends to be from the USA...

I have also come find stealing innocent couple pictures wrong, on that note. And using photos of random teenage girls to enhance your perverse fantasies? Who the fuck are you to do that? That’s absolutely disgusting and you should be ashamed.

To all the cuckolds, and those who watch interracial porn so much: you need help. Get it. You think you don’t, you think you can quit any time, or maybe that’s it’s all real. But it’s not. It’s a fantasy, and it’s not healthy. TAKE THIS FROM A BLACK MAN HIMSELF.

Europe is not dying to immigration, Black men are not superior, White women are not leaving their men in droves.

So thanks everyone. I don’t really know if I’ve enjoyed the past few years, but I’m glad it’s over. It’s a weight off my shoulders. I will try my best not to come back.

I’m going on a philosophical journey at the moment. I’m reading more politics. I like Malcolm X, especially after he renounced his racist views (yes, they were racist, you can be racist to White people). Heck, I’m even reading Edmund Burke, he’s an interesting man and I like some of his ideas. Yes, an old conservative White guy. Terrible isn’t it?

Maybe nobody will see this post? I get that impression. Most of my text posts get steady attention over the months and years. I will try to keep this up anyway, because it NEEDS TO BE SEEN.

Thank you. Stay safe, enjoy your lives. Seek out love and pleasure, but limit your intake of everything because otherwise quality will diminish. Have fun. Don’t stop reading. And love one another, regardless of skin tone.