Both of my favourite pieces of media, neon genesis evangelion and flesh blood & concrete, are based on the premise that the catalyst of all human suffering is caused by isolation inherent to our existence. And the only cure for that misery is to become one with the masses and give up any self you have in the most literal sense. I mean, the only difference is that neon genesis evangelion presents this as the bad ending whereas FB&C descending into the flesh pit is the happy ending. but both have alternative routes where the protagonist endures the solitude instead.
I think I'd be too tempted by eternal bliss to continue onwards after being offered nirvana lol .. But I still relate to Lera on a pathological level, it's like looking at my mirror image but brutally idealized. Her fear of death even whilst romanticizing her demise, her habit of lashing out at Nika despite her being the only organic kindness she's ever received, her exhaustion with existence. Flesh blood and concrete has been such an enormous comfort to me, there is no "bad" ending in it, only the happy ending where Lera finds new sanctuary in the walls of flesh, and the true ending in which she escapes and retains her autonomy, the autonomy to experience joy and misery in turn. Maybe if I killed myself I'd get to enjoy the bliss of the fleshpit even if it isn't my own happiness im experiencing, but I pace forward because every reward is my own and I want to live my life the way I want.
FB&C makes me so happy .. the passion the artist had for her project is tangible, the game itself is beautiful and so well thought out and the characters are so well written even with such little dialogue, I could daydream about Lera and Nika forever. AND THERE'S SIDE STORIES ON THE CREATORS NEOCITIES PAGE about what occurs after they leave the apartments, even if vague. hh i wanna know everything there is about it.