♰ Cider.

so tired so tired, i wanna move my hammock back to the orchard but its not the kind of temperature to be snoozing outside in .. will be needing to take blankets on my pilgrimage with me. lots of daydreaming to do this evening i think, i have a hard time visualising things in my mind but since ive finally made tangible references for the object of these daydreams its become significantly easier ... made a playlist specifically for these pondering purposes kekek

its so viscerally disturbing to me that the only thing making me retain any capacity of functionality is my meds. like when i first started sertraline it was like an angel had descended from heaven and saved me from drowning and all of a sudden i was okay and i could live life normally. but the MOMENT i forget to take them, my body will forcibly remind me by fucking screaming at me and making me miserable and want to kill everyone in my vicinity and then myself. it's so weird being productive and taking care of myself and then being proud because ive done those things, only to remember its my drugs doing the heavy lifting and if i were to stop taking them id fall back into despair instantly. hff. woe. i love my meds though and not wanting to kill myself so who am i to complain

Last day of my childhood. I dunno, I'm getting emotional and I feel like I should say something more poetic but I can't think of anything. I'm sad it couldn't last forever.

every time i open tiktok and get flashbanged by peoples custom witch hat atelier spells im reminded why magic is a closely guarded secret ... what do you mean you made a spell to turn people into human party streamers .... why are you asking for advice on how to make your brain cancer spell work ... . (･̆_･̆)