bird watcher

I have a dicktim fic idea but it’s lowkey just rape porn and while I’m not opposed to that as a concept I usually like writing things with some kind of background plot anddd I don’t think I care enough abt tim to actually write it. Dick gets sex pollened while he’s alone and he kind of stumbles into the nearest corner to jerk off but then his drugged up brain is like nonono gotta b inside someone NOW and starts thinking abt all the people he wants to fuck rlly rlly bad but realizes somewhat rationally that he should be thinking of people who might wanna fuck HIM and are somewhat accessible… and Tim used to have a crush on him! So he breaks into Tim’s place in the middle of the night and Tim walks out in his pajamas like dude—? But he can’t finish bc dick grabs his face and sticks his tongue in his throat and Tim’s making a half assed attempt to pull away but he’s mainly too shocked and confused. When dick doesn’t let up and starts trying to take off his shirt, he manages to push him back like DUDE?? And dick doesn’t respond bc he’s too busy starting to strip off the nightwing suit so tim puts together what’s happening with his big brain and he’s like fine 🙄 (but distraught and reluctant bc he feels like he has no choice. sure he used to have a crush on dick but they’ve been brothers for years now) and leads them to the bedroom. The only good thing abt dick being all hopped up on sex drugs is it doesn’t rlly give tim a second to think bc he’s immediately all over him pushing them to the bed and stripping them but then dick starts lining up and Tim’s like omg can u give me a goddamn second and dick almost cries and tim only gets him to wait by promising he’ll blow him while prepping himself which ends up being a bad idea bc dick immediately grabs his hair and brutally fucks up into his throat while being embarrassingly vocal abt it “oh my god. Oh my god tim ur throat so so good so wet—“ bc tim is uncontrollably gagging and drooling. He pries himself off and tells dick he’s going on top bc he doesn’t trust dick with the reins after that and dicks like uh huh uh huh sure and it’s not even that helpful bc dicks still slamming his hips up and trying to control Tim’s movement with his hands on his waist and still being loud asf abt how hot and tight and perfect it is and “I think you were made for this we should do this all the time why haven’t we done this before I’m so happy ur not 13 anymmffph” Tim puts a hand over his mouth “Jesus Christ shut up, dick” but then a lot of time and orgasms pass and dicks still not done but Tim’s tired so he lets him get on top. Even more time passes and tim is so unbelievably tired and sore he starts crying “Dick—“ and dick kisses him before he can tell him to stop and cups his face in his hands “no no ur ok tim ur ok just a little more” so tim cries harder but doesn’t try to stop him. But then like a minute later he can’t take it anymore and begs him to stop so dick puts a hand over his mouth and comes one more time before rolling over and passing out immediately so tim can wobble out of bed and cry in the shower. And then dick gets to feel suicidally guilty abt it when he wakes up in Tim’s bed the next afternoon and tim tells him it’s fine but won’t look him in the eye

TW my personal life but omg I had to come up with a gay little safe place for EMDR but I made the mistake of making small talk abt my interests with my therapist before hand and she asked me who my favorite character is so I just said Robin, so I’m fully eyes shut meditating coming up with my little safe scenario and she goes “and ur friend robin could be there too!” JUMPSCARE get OUT OF HERE DICK GRAYSON. She doesn’t know he’s my fav in the torture goblin way not in the comforting way

Need dc to explore dickdonnaroy but I know they wouldn’t be weird and inappropriate enough about it

I like dickdonna when it unironically feels like twincest. Never an actual romance, just codependence and secret inappropriate touching that stems from childhood trauma bonding and makes everyone uncomfortable except roy. It makes him uncomfortable AND hard