Sun Chai

our eyes meet and her freckles fill my heart with excitment.

That night i go home, still covered in all the colors she painted me. all i think about is her. the world fades ,even if its for some hours.

she becomes the only thing on my mind.

the only thing i care about

i say her name three times to convince myself shes real.

it doesnt work.

i think aboout all the times i was walking home from her place, my soul exploding because i feel like im living a dream when im with her

like its all a movie,that I hope never ends

were all the almosts

I could ever dream of

and by far my most cherished

almost of all time, the most

bittersweet memory to exist

are all the moments we never

shared, because of the almost

Someday I will get to be with you again

Someday instead of looking through the glass

I will get to open the door

Someday I will get to hold more that just your sanitized hand

I will get to hold you

Someday I won't have to wear a mask

I will be free to kiss your lips

Someday I won't be missing your smell

I will get to breathe you in

Someday I will return to your embrace

To the place I feel at home

deserve a love

that feels like

Hi! These are the settings. Got the dirt texture from here https://painttoolsaibrushes.splstc.com/painttool-sai-textures/ And thanks, you too!

Background Tutorial

requested by ion4ever. sorry it took me so long to do this for you but hopefully I was of some help? 

Notes:

I use CS6, and this was mostly done with default hard round brush at around 50% opacity or higher, 100% flow, and size pressure on. I made some random brushes for the greenery by modifying the default ones.

always use a large canvas. I go about 3000px x 3000px.

with enough practice, painting backgrounds like this will be a fairly quick affair. this one, for example, took about 30 minutes? it’s just a matter of time/experience. :)

two (2) people asked how i did the matchbook thing so take this

this is just a simple idea but if you spend some more time you can get real krazy with it:

making fake prints is so fun please do it immediately free resources under cut xoxo

Those types of touches that are feather-like and make you feel tingly in a good way. Touches like:

Face

The soft caress of your lips after the very first kiss.

Caress to the cheek after a moment together.

Gentle wipe of your spilled tears after heavy arguments, a simple gesture that shows you how sorry they are for making you shed sad tears instead of happy ones.

Gentle wipe of dirt on your cheek after enjoying your food too much.

Chin lift to make you look directly at their eyes that just make you follow aimlessly and without much force really. (bonus if they kiss afterward)

When they hold your face in their hands and just look into your eyes and just hold the other softly.

When they lightly wipe the blood off your lip from bitting it too often and softly "kiss it better"

Helping you gently put your earring on and tuck a hair behind your ear to inspect how the accessory looks beautiful on you with or without them.

Helping you put your necklace on and sneak a quick kiss on your neck before complimenting you.

Softly pulling your hair back after being food poisoned.

Worriedly inspecting your temperature after noticing your lack of mood and giving you a chaste kiss on the forehead.

Hands/Arms

Soft hand touches with a light comforting squeeze that instantly assures you they're there.

Softly massaging your hands when you ask them politely.

Loosely holding your hand while you watch and walk around on your date.

Cradling your cut finger after an incident with the knife and tending to your wound with a kiss afterward.

Caressing the back of your hand absentmindedly.

Softly toying with your ring and wondering when they'll get to replace it with a wedding ring.

Softly running their hands on your arms and feeling how cold to the touch your skin is before wrapping you in a hug to share their warmth.

Softly pulling your wrist to pull you closer to them.

softly intertwining your fingers together to hold your hand or twirl you in the middle of the night dance session.