Big Zaddy C

This is my wife to the core.

I think part of getting better is complete ego death. Like you’re not above setting a timer for 5 minutes and focusing on a task. You’re not above doing a very simple 3 minute workout to start. You’re not above reading for 10 minutes a day when you first get out of your reading slump, even if you used to read for hours. You’re not above starting slow and then building up to where you want to be/where you once were. What you are above is total inertia. Doing something really is better than doing nothing. Radically accept where you are, radically accept your limits, and go from there. Don’t let your ego get in the way.

How did you get better today?

I’ll feed you with love.

If you want to be authentic, be prepared to be disliked. If you want to be private, be prepared to be gossiped about. If you want to stick to your boundaries, be prepared to be seen as unfriendly. If you don't want to explain yourself, be prepared to be misunderstood.

Eating by the pool, my garden, is typically how I start my day.

🌷💫

I see them nearly every weekend at the Salt River, my church; nature.

I fucking LOVE this. Don't forget... sunsets too.

Let me be your charging station.

Your therapy is waiting.

I have my home. I’m a lucky man.

genuinely horrifying sometimes that this is my one shot at my life, or this iteration of it at least, that how i've spent every day is the sum of it, that there is no bonus lap where i get to actually do what i want, if i want it, i have to do it in this life, i have to do it now. it makes feeling miserable and punishing myself feel so pointless because why would i waste my time on that? when there is so much to see and explore, so many people to meet and kiss and dance with, so much to learn, why would i waste a single second not taking my life by the horns and shaking every last drop out of it.

Go do it all!