It still feels like I'm walking on circles. One thing done and I'll fall right through the trap. Eyes closed. Minds shut. All because that's what I want. I tried keeping it, chased it even. Pathetic it may seem, yes! All because I like it.

"THAT" wisdom I have when friends asks, where is it? I badly need it now. Rational thinking over deluded unrequited feels once again ladies and gents. Cliche it may sound but I can't even fix one simple issue just because I keep running away. I keep running away with hopeless and wishful thinking that maybe at the end of the day, I'll get what I want. But today and for the coming days, I'm not even sure anymore.

I'm not even sure if I deserve this or if this needs to happen just so I learn. I've got so many questions to ask actually. However this time, I can't even confront the nemesis. Maybe this is it, just like what my friend said, "no response is a response". Ha!

What am I even thinking? I knew it already but my mind choose not to. Everything was unsure. Not even close to an answer. Each issue were left hanging.

𝑈𝑦! 𝐺𝑎𝑛𝑦𝑎𝑛 𝑦𝑢𝑛𝑔 𝑚𝑔𝑎 𝑢𝑚𝑝𝑖𝑠𝑎 𝑛𝑔 𝑢𝑠𝑎𝑝𝑎𝑛

𝑙𝑎𝑘𝑎𝑠 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑎𝑡𝑢𝑠𝑘𝑜 𝑝𝑎𝑔 𝑝𝑖𝑛𝑎𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑔𝑎𝑛

𝑝𝑎𝑢𝑙𝑖𝑡 𝑢𝑙𝑖𝑡 𝑎𝑘𝑜𝑛𝑔 𝑛𝑎𝑔𝑡𝑎𝑛𝑜𝑛𝑔 𝑛𝑢𝑛 𝑛𝑔 𝑏𝑎𝑘𝑖𝑡 𝑎𝑘𝑜

𝑑𝑖 𝑚𝑜 𝑛𝑎 𝑛𝑔𝑎 𝑠𝑖𝑛𝑎𝑔𝑜𝑡 𝑏𝑖𝑔𝑙𝑎 𝑘𝑎 𝑑𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑛𝑎𝑔𝑙𝑎ℎ𝑜.

𝑡𝑎𝑝𝑜𝑠 𝑒𝑡𝑜 𝑛𝑎𝑔𝑝𝑎𝑟𝑎𝑚𝑑𝑎𝑚 𝑘𝑎 𝑢𝑙𝑖𝑡

𝑛𝑎𝑘𝑖𝑡𝑎 𝑚𝑜 𝑦𝑢𝑛𝑔 𝑝𝑜𝑠𝑡 𝑘𝑜𝑛𝑔 𝑠𝑖 𝑐𝑟𝑢𝑠ℎ 𝑎𝑦 𝑏𝑖𝑛𝑎𝑛𝑔𝑔𝑖𝑡

𝑤𝑎𝑙𝑎𝑛𝑔 𝑝𝑎𝑛𝑔𝑎𝑙𝑎𝑛 𝑎𝑛𝑔 𝑛𝑎𝑘𝑎𝑙𝑎𝑔𝑎𝑦 𝑝𝑒𝑟𝑜 𝑝𝑎𝑟𝑎 𝑡𝑎𝑙𝑎𝑔𝑎 𝑦𝑢𝑛 𝑠𝑎𝑦𝑜

𝐸𝑤𝑎𝑛 𝑘𝑜 𝑙𝑎𝑛𝑔 ℎ𝑎 𝑝𝑒𝑟𝑜 𝑠𝑎𝑛𝑎 𝑛𝑎𝑚𝑎𝑛 𝑔𝑒𝑡𝑠 𝑚𝑜.

𝑠𝑖𝑛𝑢𝑏𝑢𝑘𝑎𝑛 𝑘𝑜 𝑢𝑙𝑖𝑡

𝑘𝑎𝑠𝑖 𝑛𝑔𝑎 𝑠𝑎𝑏𝑖 𝑛𝑖𝑙𝑎 𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑑𝑜 𝑖𝑡 𝑝𝑎𝑟𝑎 𝑛𝑜 𝑟𝑒𝑔𝑟𝑒𝑡𝑠

𝑛𝑎𝑔 𝑢𝑠𝑎𝑝 𝑢𝑙𝑖𝑡 𝑎𝑡 𝑛𝑎𝑔𝑘𝑢𝑙𝑖𝑡𝑎𝑛

𝑖𝑛𝑢𝑚𝑎𝑔𝑎 𝑢𝑙𝑖𝑡 𝑛𝑔 𝑡𝑢𝑘𝑠𝑢ℎ𝑎𝑛

𝑤𝑎𝑙𝑎𝑛𝑔 𝑠𝑖𝑚𝑢𝑙𝑎 𝑎𝑡 𝑤𝑎𝑙𝑎𝑛𝑔 𝑒𝑛𝑑𝑖𝑛𝑔

𝑙𝑎𝑔𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑜𝑝𝑒𝑛 𝑒𝑛𝑑𝑒𝑑 𝑦𝑢𝑛𝑔 𝑑𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔

𝑎𝑛𝑑𝑦𝑎𝑛 𝑘𝑎 𝑛𝑎 𝑝𝑒𝑟𝑜 𝑏𝑎𝑡 𝑝𝑎𝑟𝑎𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑛𝑔 𝑙𝑎𝑦𝑜 𝑝𝑎 𝑑𝑖𝑛

ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑔𝑔𝑎𝑛𝑔 𝑑𝑖𝑡𝑜 𝑛𝑎𝑙𝑎𝑛𝑔 𝑏𝑎 𝑚𝑢𝑛𝑎 𝑎𝑡 𝑤𝑎𝑔 𝑛𝑔 𝑝𝑖𝑝𝑖𝑙𝑖𝑡𝑖𝑛?

𝑠𝑎𝑘𝑎 𝑛𝑎𝑙𝑎𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑘𝑜 𝑚𝑎𝑔𝑙𝑎𝑙𝑎𝑔𝑎𝑦 𝑛𝑔 𝑘𝑢𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑛𝑢

𝑘𝑎𝑠𝑖 𝑘𝑎ℎ𝑖𝑡 𝑎𝑘𝑜 𝑛𝑎𝑏𝑎 𝑏𝑙𝑎𝑛𝑘𝑜

𝑚𝑎𝑔𝑡𝑎𝑡𝑎𝑔𝑝𝑜 𝑏𝑎 𝑎𝑡 𝑖𝑡𝑎𝑡𝑎𝑑ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑎

We're too busy saving the humanity, too pre-occupied saving others, exhaust ourselves to give care every single time. But who saves us? Who gives care?

This is a story of the unappreciated, abused healthcare professionals in the Philippines. You can call it a cry for help. But this is not just a cry but more of making you realize what you'll be regretting if you continue this treatment to us- to those of you who belittles this profession. Sooner or later, our absence will be your greatest regret. Because let's just be true, you always took us for granted, exploited us for being what: asleep on duty hours? Careless? For making you wait for long hours in the que? You are ungrateful for every little thing about us. But have you realize how we feel about it too? No?! Because I'll tell you what, you're too self centered!!!

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I should really be studying right now but this thought keeps bugging me like that someone whom I try to forget but can't seem to get rid off my system. You get that feels? Sucks right? So to temporarily divert me in contemplating, I wrote this piece.

If finding Mr and Miss right have a playlist, then maybe this could be it.  Last sunday, as I attended the service, this father and son shared a list of songs about finding the ONE. I don't know but it strucked me and made me realized yeah! It does makes sense.

"wishing there would be, someone waiting home for me"

"sana sinabi mo nang di na umasa may tayo pa sa huli"

"ease my trouble that's what you do"

"Bawat kilig na nadarama sa tuwing hawak ang iyong kamay, ito'y maling akala isang malaking sablay"

"love will keep us alive"

"mundo'y magiging ikaw"

"now and forever till the day I die, you and I will share"

True enough finding someone who could swept you off your feet is fleeting, like a drug that could make you high but at the same time could also turn your world upside down. It gives you hope, it breaks you down; it isn't always patient and kind, sometimes it tears you down.  Complex isn't it? If I were you, would you still choose to start over?

We meet people like Elijah, they cross our paths to be a blessing or to be a lesson learned. I too have met my Elijah years ago and that path wasn't easy. I kept trying to think of the good side of him crossing my path. Years have past and yep I realized that somehow, he did something good to me. I realized I could love genuinely. He's a blessing. I kept thinking him that way tho pangs of heartbreak still lingers from time to time.

Coz you give me ACHES

If you’ll ever find and read this, you might be “tsk-ing"again and might want to strangle me because this pal of yours with so much hugot lines in her system are on her mood again for some melodramatic write up (I’m telling you now that it isn’t, so you can calm down and just go keep on reading)

Bomod-ok Falls

Another walkathon activity did happen on our second day. It wasn’t that as tiring as the first but it did leave marks (especially on our feet). One best tip I could give you: SUNSCREENS!!!

 Expect lots of walking if you’re in Sagada. Most of the activities offered in this place have lots of walking to do. Our trip to Bomod-ok falls took about 4-5 hours of walking. There are two ways how to get in the said falls (one is a shortcut but steep path and the other requires longer hours of walking but much easier than the latter) we chose the easier one since our first day activity made are legs madly sore (haha!)

And If I fall for you I’ll never recover (coz this falls will freeze every fiber of my being. Ice bucket challenge version 5.0).  

Sea Of Clouds: Kiltepan Viewpoint Peak

“And I guess, you and this view have one thing in common, so near yet so far” -Me to that future partner in crime of mine (whoever he is..haha!)

This was my favorite part of the trip: no more “ubos-baga/hingal adventure” Hihi! And yes, we were lucky enough to witness the sea of clouds (before it became sea f fog five minutes later..haha! )

Last day: We’ll see you again!

Some other activities we’ve tried during our trip: EAT (lemon cake and coffee were a good combo and strawberry ice cream was great too!), visited the dream weavers (unfortunately taking photos wasn’t allowed), did visited a church in town and did some pottery sesh with the locals (btw, they speak English fluently. Hats off!!! ) And before heading to Baguio, we stopped at the highest point in Benguet :)

SAGADaaaah sa Adventures!

Guess this trip was one of the best I’ve had for this year not just because of the view the place offers but also with the things I’ve experienced firsthand on the entire trip.

Spelunking at Lumiang-Sumaguing Cave

And I won’t deny that this trip was one of the biggest desensitization I’ve ever encountered for my 23 years of existence (haha!)  It was the longest 5 hours of my entire life dwelling on the unknown (sorry if you may found it a bit exaggerated. I do have fear of heights and dark places) and lucky me to have those fears conquered in our 5 hour walk-crawl adventure from Sumaguing to Lumiang Cave.

Friends who travel together, gets sick leaves all together.  (Lols! The entire trail was made possible due to never ending encouragements and cheers that we’ll all finish this hellish-beast mode-walk >_<

To see wonders, one must know how to dwell in the unknown. It was really a nice-thrilling-so good to be true experience. The adventure and the marvelous creations we’ve seen right before our eyes indeed made our exhaustion from walking/crawling/swimming on cold waters all worth it.

One thing I learned from this trip: TAKE THINGS SLOW. You really can’t afford falling! Hahaha!

And here’s me (with my  almost jell-o knees due to the cold temperature inside the cave combined with the fear of slipping and breaking every fiber of my being..lols!)

And today marks the last page of the year. It has been a great ride!!! Glad to have and meet new friends, to have same kulitan moments with the old ones.

2015 has been a great teacher for me and I guess this year taught me one of the few great things I’ll always remember: Be who you are and say what you feel, coz YOU matter. 

I might still be afraid of changes, but I’m glad I’m surrounded with people who keeps me up, who will always be there no matter what, who will always choose my happiness even if it doesn’t include them. Family and friends I’ll forever cherish. 

And lastly, this year is a whole lot fun because of endless TRIPS and wanderlust-takas moments! Looking forward for more trips by 2016 :))

As much as we always want the new, let’s take a last glimpse for this OSM year!!!  THANK YOU 2015. 

Thank you G for making all those things possible. I am ready 2016:D

-signing off: kathy

Not so long ago, June 12, 2015 to be exact, we headed our Independence staycation in one of the most visited place in Northern Luzon. If you are a fan of the recently hit movie-That Thing Called Tadhana, then you probably know this place.

SAGADA!!!

It was a 3 days staycation and we’ve done some of the most unforgettable adventures I never imagined myself doing. Haha!

For this trip to be possible, we’ve decided to contact an agency that offers package tour in the said place. If your going in groups, this will help you budget your expenses as well as plan your activities since they’ll be the one who’ll arrange your itinerary (which of course will be based on your chosen activities)

Day 1: The Long Drive.

Hello from us! And now’s the time to cool down after all the aches of working. Hihi! All thanks to my batchmates/friends who invited me to this trip. Hugs guys!!! 

Meeting the Natives.

Getting ready for some Wacky-wacky!

Art in Nature. Before I was just seeing this image in books and postcards and seeing it personally gives me feels! Thank you for a well crafted nature. 

Breakfast is served. Nothing beats a good morning Pinoy breakfast :)

It’s been a while and i truly miss this side of me- writing/sharing my thoughts on a late night basis with coffee on my side and a comfy pillow on my back. I’m getting a bit excited to share some good-to-know stuffs which some of you might have done it already or have been into it. Well I guess this is it...HELLO again Tumblr friends! :D