I'll endure the exile

i think about this tiktok a lot cause wtf do u mean i had what i thought was the most loving friend group ever but while the groups new favorite can reconnect with their abuser of almost a DECADE as many times they want,

i'm not allowed to cut my abuser off on my own terms after i was forced to cold-turkey the 7+ year trauma bond because suddenly i'm a groomer apologist and get dogpiled, threatened with abandonment, after being in a clearly emotionally frail state for months. to the point that i felt so unsafe and unwanted that going back to my groomer felt safer than to be with those "friends".

and they fucking prove me right. the harrassment campaign that followed was so life-altering and traumatic that i'm still not recovered 4 years later. and those people are all still friends, saying "i'm glad that rough patch of my life is over!" FUCK YOU. literally all of them tried to push me to suicide, and i attempted twice.

i just woke up, but thanks for finally realizing ur faults. yes i shouldve said something before going afk, i feel bad about it to this day. i did genuinely care about u as a friend and i do think it was real, but trauma was a big part of it yes.

the " pedophile claims " was me mimicing u, when u were making up complete bs about me too. in case u forgot. also when u were getting anon hate, decided that must be my fault and threatened to dox me.

i will not forgive u for going back to the old friend group. the same people who made me the avoidant and traumatized person i am today. we were not screwed over by just Z and V, it was T and their herd of sheep too. u were there when it happened and u willingly went back to them years later. i saw what u said about me and how easily u let T influence u just so they could hurt me again. to me, this is unforgivable.