Be my happiest memory

You don’t miss me, you just miss the person who loved you so much you didn’t have to love them back.

But no matter how mad I’ve been, I never for one second stopped wanting you here with me.

You had a good girl waiting for you and you fucked that up.

I was driving home today as I passed by all the places we used to go together. It was in the midst of our bittersweet memories when I realized I took you to all my favorite places. All my favorite places that I can never return to again.

I know some of you are greatly distressed because you cannot love Christ as much as you would like to do and you keep on fretting because it is so. Now just forget your own love to Him and think of His great love to you and then immediately your love will come to something more like that with which you desire it to be.

tonight, like some other nights, i will get drunk on every single thing i wish i had the courage to speak out loud.