Tumblr scrolling induced like/reblog fugue state

but in my experience 95% of my hallucinations are getting spooked by very clearly hearing someone knocking on my door or calling my name from another room or hearing footsteps walking behind me which are "just" my brain recreating the horror of an abusive childhood

(not trying to put you on blast specifically, you're just a good example to jump off of)

media and pop culture hypes up psychosis a lot as The Worst That Can Happen out of sanism, so even when you try and filter that cultural bias out you still assume it's based on something

when, no, psychosis is actually very simple: it's just hyperactive pattern matching. it's your brain's signal-to-noise ratio being off balance, it's seeing images in random static. it's not always this special uniquely big thing, it's in fact quite mundane a lot of the time.

no one is immune to psychosis, it's not purely the realm of the insane. anyone is one bad night of sleep or one bad case of food poisoning or one bad fever away from being just like me on my worst days.

(It turned out that we just had a mouse problem).

Because yeah, more likely than not one day it's gonna settle on me too.

I can already tell whether devices are plugged in or not by the noise they make (inaudible to most people) and can tell the next light at work to blow by the difference in the noise it makes compared to a healthy light panel, so at least I have had some practice navigating the world when there are things I can perceive that most people don't (mostly by being very careful who I tell things to so I don't get seen as making things up).

The bewitching thing about our lad is that he can be interestingly unhappy in SO MANY WAYS.

Seriously, there has never been a better time to take steps to protect yourself against doxxing.

https://cwc.im/DoxCare