Who the hell is Becky?

ok I slept like 3 hours last night so this will not be as coherent as I hoped but the quickest version is this: there's an anchor arc in TBC that has to be solid, as I've hinged every other part of the story on it, but the further we got into the book the more fragile it became. Tashie & I went back and forth for 2+ weeks trying to make it work. turns out a clean fix was impossible, and the only thing to do was tear the entire arc out and start over. I have faith I can get it right this time, but I don't have faith I can rewrite & revise (and edit everything else around it) in time for a November deadline. Sorry, my lovies, but thank you for all your kind words & for sticking with me anyway <3

One thing about Obsession (2026) that I enjoyed was that it almost asks you to feel empathy for the entity possessing Nikki as well as the real one. Like, obviously the things she's doing are horrific and fucked up, but I think the scene where Bear is asking her to "just be Nikki!" and she eventually just desperatly screams "I can't be Nikki!" does a really good job of showcasing the entity's inner feelings. She's been created with the sole purpose of loving this guy more than anyone else but no matter how perfect it is or how much he claims to love her, its not her that he loves, its Nikki. And any time she stops pretending to be Nikki, he reacts (albeit rightfully) with disgust and horror. She can't be Nikki because Nikki would never love Bear, and so Bear will never love her.