Earth of Silence, Confused Universe

Joined the live stream last night and it was a heartwrenching, yet beautiful scenery to witness.

2002-2023

Wow, what an amazing 19 years! I'm sure their friendship will last for eternity. And here I am continue living with their undying flames, chosing to believe that someday our path will cross again. Someday, the five of you will stand on the same stage again, burning the spirit once for all 🔥❤️

Happy Birthday, モグ!!!

Can't believe I forgot his birthday when I had wrote an entire entry on Hiroto's Voicy episode correcting Mogu's birthday mistake 😭😭😭

Hiroto just tweeted:

"Mid-autumn full moon🌕

September 10th is the birthday of a certain fair-skinned guy whom I've known for a long time. We're watching the moon together🌕

Tags: congrats"

And I had the audacity to QRT his tweet, saying: Who..?!! 🫠🫠🫠

I want to disappear lmfao 🥲

I✨ HAPPY NEW YEAR ✨

Thank you very much for following this site until now! Recently, I got diagnosed with dysthymia (persistent depressive disorder) alongside with Generalized Anxiety Disorder. I have to admit, it was super difficult to accept the truth and deal with it. Many things happened in a brisk pace throughout 2021, I barely had time to do things I used to do. And for not showing up regularly, I'm terribly sorry 😭

I got several days left for holiday, thus I have time to get back out there for translating stuffs and being excited again. But of course, once I get back to work, I might not have any chance to do other things again due to my low energy level on daily basis.

This site has been running for two years now. For me, it's such an achievement because by looking at this site, I can see physical proofs of my love for Hiroto (and hopefully, he too, can see them). I also made unexpected friends with some wonderful people here and I truly appreciate every tiny bit of it.

I miss my baby so much ♥🥺

A week after I met him and looked directly into his sparkly dreamy eyes, heard him showering my covers with love 🥺

I love him so much, I can write an entire album about him.

Otsukaresamadeshita, Alice Nine.'s First Online Fanmeeting!✨ July 17th, 2021 is officially one of the most important dates in my life that I can never forget 🥺😭 I'd love to cover the event as a whole, but SN_Alternative on Twitter had done it so please kindly read the report here.

I will try to talk about 1 on 1 session that lasted for 2 mins with Hiroto. Notes: I'm still a wreck after talking directly to him and forgive me for blabbering 😭😥

Originally had written down everything I want to tell him and I told the committee that I wouldn't need translator and would try my best to speak Japanese.

"It's really you, Hiroto!" was the very first sentence spitted out from my mouth and HELLA EMBARRASSING, NANA WTF WERE YOU THINKING OFC IT'S REALLY HIROTO😭

According to my notes, I was supposed to ask "How are you and Mogu?" to Hiroto...but as soon as I finished introducing myself, Hiroto said, "Hey, Nana! I love your covers and they are wonderful!" with a pair of his sparkly dreamy beautiful eyes and the most beautiful smile ever. (IT'S NOT EVEN A FANFIC, Y'ALL)

🥴🥴🥴

I was screaming internally and only laughed awkwardly, trying my best not to scream for good. I told him how I initially planned not to join the fan meeting because I had so many things to worry about but then again, I decided to come and he looked so happy. He gave me two thumbs up and smiled so brightly.

Hiroto repeatedly praised my covers, making me realize that he really does remember me 🥺😭

He said I made wonderful sound with my music, so I shall not stop because he's looking forward for more! I told him, "I wanted to sing Hoshifuru Yoru ni wa Kimi wo Omou for you today,"

Hiroto be like, "Oh!" 😯

"But there is time limit, so I don't think it's possible."

Hiroto replied, "It's okay. It's not a good time for singing anyways."

As the session continued, I saw the timekeeper reminded me that I only had 30 seconds left so, I asked him question, "I read somewhere that you love NINE INCH NAILS band. Is that true?"

In the background, Nao sneezed so loud 😂😂😂

Hiroto whispered, "Why Nao is being so loud since then? I'm sorry, could you repeat your question?"

I giggled so much, I stuttered when pronouncing NINE INCH NAILS. But Hiroto finally caught my question and his face glowed. "Ah, NINE INCH NAILS! Yes, I really love them!"

I wanted to say that I listened some of them but Hiroto seemed to want to say something, too, we ended up both being silent😂

I said thank you and thank you so many times for his support, for loving my covers, for the advice he had given me whenever I need them, Hiroto replied, "Ah, no, no, it's my pleasure. You made wonderful music and please continue doing it! Next time you attend our lives in Japan, let's have some jam session!(I'm not sure about this part because I was overwhelmed)"

MY INTERNAL SCREAMING GETTING LOUDER.

My time was up and in the end, I kept saying thank you and how thankful I was for the opportunity to talk to him personally and thanked him for everything he has done to me until now 🥺😭

We said goodbye and HE OUT OF NOWHERE BLEW ME A KISS BYE I CHOKED HARD!!!!! 😭😭😭

My screen then went black as I was being returned to the waiting room. I muted my mic and stopped my video then I screamed on the top of my lungs, squeezing and rocking my sister's body.

My sanity is nowhere to be found...every time I close my eyes, I can see his smile and the way he called my name so happily....

I can die happy now 😭

I've started a new full-time job, I never opened Tumblr anymore 🤣

Anyone joining Alice Nine.'s first online MnG next week? 'CAUSE I DO!!! 😭😭😭 I'M GONNA TALK TO HIROTO IN PERSON AFTER YEARS OF YEARS ADMIRING HIM FROM AFAR 😭😭😭

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