Peace

I also used this blog as my diary in a way, documenting the small details that are important to me or beautiful in my eyes through my cameras.

Then now, with years of being inactive passing, I found myself feeling comfortable sharing here again as most of the people who knows me are no longer active here, and I can share quite more openly without the need to explain myself much or get them worried about me.

yet this time I'm also interested to find random humans around the world who also use this space to vent out, who document their simple life's details. I'm kinda interested to see what are their random thoughts, what do they see as beautiful around them, how do they coop up with their struggles.

I'm not really sure if this is the right platform anymore for this, as the majority of the "blogs" here are just reposting pretty much the same photos, where I rarely find a real personal blog to follow.

I was convinced that I'm bound to a life of distractions, self-hatred, and self-destruction.. but she's rapidly changing all of that, she's swiftly mending my wonds, and introducing me to a life i never thought would exist..

I know for fact this is not the magic of new starts, this is far beyond romanticising, it's destiny, a kind soul came my way to reserict me..

I love her, so much, and i want nothing now but to keep her happy by my side, all life long..

I've started to see many; casual hookups and dating, nothing seemed to work, everything felt like it was a sort of self hurt, i felt like an alien.

Until one day i met her, Nada. From the moment we've meet something sparked inside of me.. the comfort my heart felt was so strong, for a moment i forgot how bad i hate myself.

We kept talking for over 9 hours, not noticing the time nor anything else.

Near a beach, three hours past midnight, no one esle around.. a magical first kiss, it felt like from a long lost lover. I can't remember the last time i did anything that felt as right and as good.

Only a month have passed, but with every day passing we get closer. With every moment together she mend something in me that i thought was unfixable.

She managed to resurrect me, and took over all my thoughts and feelings.

She made me feel worthy again, and for that I'll be always grateful.

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It's a new start, a beautiful one.