i’m bored with myself as a person maybe i should do some drugs or crash a car or stop eating again or pick up a nice smoking habit just to keep me busy
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i’m bored with myself as a person maybe i should do some drugs or crash a car or stop eating again or pick up a nice smoking habit just to keep me busy

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I‘m so fucking hurt. Everything is painful and just too much. I could cry all day every day. I‘m so burnt out i just wanz everything to stop.
lucy dacus, my mother and i // blythe baird from if my body could speak
Crying to my immortal by evanescence just hit‘s differently
Forgot why i fear bananas. Ate one. Logged calories (185). Remembered why i fear bananas.

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I just realised that i eat oatmeal because it makes me nauseous and i can‘t eat a lot of it. Not because i actually enjoy it. Fml.
I‘m loosing my mind.
I had a doctor‘s appointment today and she told me i‘m perfectly healthy, she doesn‘t think i have an ed and i should just eat. I‘m somewhere between total disbelief and wanting to relapse harder to proof my suffering. Wtf is happening? Am i actually faking this? Do i even have an ed?
My last 2 braincells are debating whether i should break up with my bf, eat a cookie or cry for 3 days straight
How does anyone recover in a f*cking pandemic? I feel like i‘m loosing my mind.
Had breakfast with my coworkers today.
Eating 2 fruits (including 1 fearfood) + yoghurt might have been too much to start with. I‘m panicking.

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Bitches will decide to recover and than have nothing but coffee for breakfast.
It‘s me. I‘m bitches.
I just had cereal. I‘m doing this. I‘m recovering. Suck my d*ck ana.
my least favorite part of having an eating disorder is the constant arguing and bargaining in your head. racing thoughts all the fuckin time like, “okay I’ve had 75 calories today. I can have a banana and still be under 200. wait, 1200 is still considered restriction. how much would I lose this week with a daily deficit of 500 calories? I can do that. I’ll still lose weight. but not as much as if I fasted. no. just have nothing. you could lose 3.5 lbs. this week! just have nothing. people do it every day. just have a fucking banana. you won’t even be at maintenance. but what if it triggers a binge? think about your jawline. why don’t I just have everything I want and purge? what percentage can you get back up when you purge? hey google…” AND IT NEVER STOPS.
i may not show it 💯 but my brain really be feeling like scrampled egg
(80 cals)
me fasting: I don’t wanna do this
me binging: I don’t wanna do this
me restricting: I don’t wanna do this
me eating like a normal person: I don’t wanna do this
anyone feel like they’re too rational to have an ed sometimes? like i know to eat if i’m about to faint, i can act normal when eating out with other people. i can’t decide if i’m deceiving myself or my ed and since when did i become two different people and i hate it.
It’s like it has an off switch around normies. And switches itself back on the second I’m alone again, lol

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Bitches will decide to recover and than have nothing but coffee for breakfast.
It‘s me. I‘m bitches.
"fuck my eating disorder" i say, as i binge on everything in the kitchen as if that isn’t. a part of. my disorder