Accepted

I can’t believe I haven’t posted on here in so long. I am drawing for an hour or so a week and want to get in the habit of drawing every day.

I haven’t been drawing everyday, mainly on the weekends and nothing beyond sketches in my DIY sketchbook. I want to make the effort to draw every day, in the morning and during work. I want to be an artist so much, I will practice as much as I can until I can draw scenes, characters, whatever my heart desires.

Elephant drawing I did in charcoal when I was 17 2010. That was the year I graduated and I have this to our librarian.

I’m so glad that I’ve taken the steps to get better at drawing but also to pursue other things that make my soul happy.

Used a standing reference online. Anthony asked me how long I’ve been drawing and I said 13 weeks. “I haven’t been practicing every day though. Mostly on my days off.” I want to practice every day but my depression is at the point where I can’t eat. It’s a concentrated effort and after I get a few bites my jaw tightens. 3 months ago I saw my doctor and got Zoloft. It rattles in my bag full of colored pencils. I stopped taking it after 4 days for nausea and one of the symptoms is you might not want to have sex which I didn’t like the sound of. I feel helpless but if only someone could come over and bring home cooked food like Aunt Zella made. Or some barbecue - the kind you have at a pool party. Okay rant over.

What I’ve been using on my art journey. Y E A R O N E Mechanical pencil .7 mm lead Ball point pen I told myself that I will invest in better art supplies if in 6 months I’m still drawing. I need to practice every day.

9:56 pm Felt discouraged and gave up and then went back at it again. I’m glad I did. I am not saying this drawing is any good - but a drawing is better than no drawing. How will you know unless you try? You will miss 100% of all the shots you do not take. All those cliches about not letting the fear of failure keep you from playing the game.

Today, Im catching up on a week of no practice and doing character sketches.

I finally decided to make a blog for my art journey! The idea was to make an imaginary art school and design "courses." I can't go to a fancy university. I also felt like at 25 it's too late to pursue art. I want to create visual stories. It's also time well spent: I am unplugged and my depressed mind settles down to watch as I draw. I have a long way to go. I have so much to learn. Its been over 12 weeks and I'm still practicing how to draw the figure. I battle being incredibly hard on myself. I thought a blog would be a great place to record my art journey.