You did well
In just a few days will be exactly three months since he left. And it still feels so surreal its as if a part of me died. I can't yet comprehend how bad this feeling is knowing someone so kind and beautiful as him knew what depression felt like. I sometimes stumble on photos or videos of him with the caption of "This is my favorite memory of him" and it makes me want to throw up. Because I'm forced to believe hes gone. And whenever I listen to his music. I'm forced to believe it. When his last album came out. Im forced to believe it. The memories of that day.. Still swarm my mind and it haunts me. Because I'll never be able to see him smile again. Ill never hear him sing and I'll never see him make us happy again. Because he's gone. And there's days where I don't feel anything at all and then there's days where I feel everything at once.
I don't think I'll ever get over his death
I think apart of me will always ache for him. Because I can't help but realize an angel was taken too soon by depression.
Maybe it would of hurt less if he died on accident. But not on purpose.
And for that, I'll always hurt.
But its not your fault Jonghyun. You just couldn't do it anymore.
And you did well, I promise you.
You did well.















