can you write a letter to baker from like 5 years ago explaining her current situation
youâre 19 now. you got into your dream college, just like we always planned. you graduated top of the class and now youâre having the time of your life at LSU. and you fell in love. you found it in the most unexpected place but itâs amazing. better than you ever imagined. just donât be too scared when it comes around, okay?Â
i say that because, well⌠itâs hannah. you fall in love with hannah. and god, every time her fingertips trace along your skin itâs electrifying. every time you kiss her your lips tingle for hours after. i wonât lie to you, bake, itâs messy. you act on impulse one night at a party and you kiss her and the whole world falls at your feet - and just like that you were done for. you drive home from clayâs party one night with hannah, you spent half an hour stargazing and then left to make mac ânâ cheese and iâm pretty sure itâs while youâre driving down the moonlit road as the rain lightly tapped against the windscreen as hannah bopped her head and hummed along to strawberry swing that you realised it was something more. but the kiss almost ruins it. youâre scared and youâre ashamed. you do everything you can to stop feeling that way.. you even do something you regret and it breaks your heart because itâs something sacred. something that only felt right with hannah. youâre going to push her away and youâre gonna hurt her, but promise me youâll make it up to her? because she deserves the world, and you need to give that to her. sheâs brave and she protected you - she really, really loves you.
you have a bit of an accident - but maybe a bump to the head was all you needed. that teaches you for getting brave, huh? donât forget to thank Ms. C. and never, ever delete her email to you. itâs important and part of what shaped you as a person.
youâre ready to accept yourself, and to allow yourself to love hannah. and itâs wonderful. be patient with people, wonât you? especially your parents. they love you and your happiness is important to them. but itâs a lot to take in. theyâre really trying, i promise. itâs easier now - especially because they love hannah so much. hanâs special, bake.Â
youâll get to 17 and youâll be terrified because kissing your best friend felt like coming home. and then youâll get to 19 and be so in love with every last bit of her youâll wonder why home ever scared you to begin with.Â
so now youâre 19. studying at LSU, youâve made a ton of new friends, youâre acing your classes and youâre happy. youâre happy, bake. you were so scared and ashamed - so guilt ridden. and everything fell into place and you canât remember the last time your heart ever felt so full - you donât think it ever has. hannah is visiting from Emory and is due to arrive any minute and youâll spend the weekend together, just like you do every month. long distance is hard, but she makes it so worth it. cherish her and love her with every fibre of your being because youâll never find another girl like her. trust me.Â
you did it, bake. you found yourself and you fell in love with the most wonderful girl in the entire world - but most importantly, you learnt how to love yourself. you did it.Â
donât waste a single second; cease every moment and love like itâs the last time youâll ever taste her lips again. just love.Â