Bad At Borderline

the good thing is I really can cut someone off in a split second and then just disassociate about it so I’m not upset and like that’s really the best way to deal with situations I think

sometimes my [whatever causes this] makes me do things like cook in the dark because I don’t want to cross the room to turn on the light? like turning the light on is too many steps or I’m going to turn it off again after anyway. like what is the issue it’s a light switch you can turn it on and off as many times as you need to

handling a situation in a way that would make more sense if I were on the other side of it is kinda fucking weird

tfw you have no identity outside of your relationships with other people/adopting things from their personality/mannerisms and taking after them for better or for worse

I feel really bad and no one cares. they would care if I kms but I can’t tell them how bad I feel now

my anxiety hasn’t been this bad in a long time … it’s been at peak literally all day and just keeps spiking

nowhere to turn nowhere to turn

literally nowhere to turn lol

I truly have become less impulsive and that’s #progress baby

I’m like … suffering vigorously and no one cares or gets it