I just want to write.

This looks like a good idea.

This song is just too much.

Final Fantasy is too much.

I'm in love with my best friend, who loves me, too. But he has a girlfriend, and she's just GREAT. But who does he always call in the middle of the night? Who does he say "I love you" to every night before he goes to sleep, even if she's there? Who does he call "beautiful", "adorable", "perfect", "sweet", "precious", "baby", "love", "my baby", ect? Not his girlfriend. Me. She is stupid enough to ignore it like he's joking.

He loves me, but he stays with her because he can get away with everything with her and he can't get away with shit with me because I care about him.

Even if he broke up with her, I don't know if I could trust him enough to date, though. If he treats his girlfriend that way, who's to say he'd treat me any different?

A/N: I don't own B2ST or CUBE and don't claim any part of their cool thing they got going. I'm just a chick with too much time and imagination. I hope I can at least entertain you, the reader, the most important part of this story. :3 If you are opposed to smut, don't worry about reading any further. I'll update you at the beginning of next chapter.

Chapter 6

SooYun's POV

HyunSeung texted me. I didn't know how I felt about it, either.

( So, you're with DongWoon now? )

How am I to answer that? I'm not "with" DongWoon but I'm interested in him. But what if I told HyunSeung that and he got mad? I don't think he has feelings for me, but maybe he would be mad at DongWoon. How was I to know?

"Just ask DongWoon," MiYoung said when I told her my dilemma.

I didn't want to go home that night. DongWoon and I laid on top of the picnic table looking at the sky. It was cloudy, so we couldn't really see the stars. There was a glow from the city that made everything feel like a science fiction anyway. DongWoon had his arm under my neck and resting on my arm. He kept humming a song they were going to record tomorrow. It was called "Break Down" and it would be on their new mini-album. When we weren't talking, he'd touch his lips to my temple. I was ready to fall asleep in the chilly wind because DongWoon was so warm.

A/N: I don't own B2ST or CUBE and don't claim any part of their cool thing they got going. I'm just a chick with too much time and imagination. I hope I can at least entertain you, the reader, the most important part of this story. :3

Chapter 4

After a collaboration of ideas from several parties, CUBE renamed our "official" group. Our new name was BERRI. In addition to that, they gave me a stage name, "Sammy."

"SooYun just doesn't sound like a lady rapper. You need to be…" Yoonie began, but I finished for him.

I got a text from an ex that I've been into for years now, and we got into the inevitable "What could have been" talk. First:

You mean a lot to me. You know, I've adored you since the first time you introduced yourself to me and haven't been able to stop thinking about you since then. I always wanted you to be mine, and for me to be yours. I want you to know that every "I love you" I said, I really meant it. You're still everything I could ask for and so much more. You're the most lovely girl I've ever known. I wanted to be the boy who holds you in his arms and keeps you safe and litens to whatever you have to say, no matter what it is. You're so down to earth and genuine. I love your personality and the way you can make me laugh and give me butterflies still, from miles away. You should never be sad because a smile always deserves to be on the gorgeous face of yours. And for whatever you choose to do, I'll be right behind you and supporting you all the way. So I hope that explains it..

Then, being the dumbass I am, I started crying.. and told him I was such a nerd and he deserved someone less messed up than me. And he keeps going;

You're different, in a good way, and I like that a lot. You're not a stuck up bitch, and you never were. You were always nice to me, and I absolutely adored everything about you, including the little things. Your cute smile, beautiful eyes, and the way you've made me feel since Sept. 30 (2011 would have been our 3 year anniversary) I feel this weird butterfly thing in my stomach whenever we talk. I cannot stop thinking about you, not matter how distant we are. I'll never meet someone as special as you are to me, and I love every moment we spend together. :)

This boy is killing me.. I wish I didn't break up with him. :/ I should not have broken up with him. It was the worst decision I've made, because a lot of events that followed were terrible. And now he's gone, he moved. But it doesn't look like he ever moved on... Did I? I don't know anymore. I was never sure to begin with...

I only have like 1300 words so far. T_T UNDER A LOT OF PRESSURE.

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I stole these photos from http://hellyeahitsaikara.tumblr.com but I think they are just.. JunSeungie, I couldn't...

So the first picture I saw was this:

notice how JunSeung is separated?

then I saw this