i said i would do a notes game a while back,, and i kinda need some motivation to do stuff that are ACTUALLY important and i need to get done π₯² but yeah here we go!!! spam is ok dw about bombing my notifications i donβt expect this to blow up idgaf bro.
cw for sh, ed(? could just be an overreaction) and sui !!! you donβt have to do this if you donβt wanna btw. completely no pressure. i know this will take a long while and i made it almost impossible on purpose lmao
uncolored = not done || blue = reached || purple = done
1 β wow maybe iβll drink more water
10 β iβll eat more (and maybe try to avoid skipping breakfast)
20 β iβll stop procrastinating my project in filipino
30 β i wont let my assignments stack up and actually finish them so i can enjoy my weekend more π₯Ή
40 β iβll ACTUALLY start reviewing for quizzes instead of just winging it π
50 β iβll stop my (concerningly) bad habits for a week
60 β i wont pick, bite, and scratch my skin for as long as i can
70 β iβll hang out with other friends (especially if things get bad with my current friend group) and int w moots i dont talk to that often anymore
80 β iβll start planning outfits to feel less dysphoric
90 β iβll put a screen time on my phone
100 β iβll clean up my desk!!!!!! π€―π€― /sil
120 β i wont stay up too late for a month
150 β i wont try to harm myself in any way for as long as i can (more than a month)
200 β iβll try and write a chapter of my horrifyingly long oc story π₯Ή
220 β iβll train more on badminton (i wanna try varsity but theres a lot of good players so im prob FUCKED if i dont lol) π₯π₯
250 β iβll post more doodles ^_^
300 β iβll borrow a book from the library and try to finish it (books can only be borrowed for a week, so i only have a week to finish it)
320 β iβll try to learn how to play more songs on a piano and melodica :0
350 β iβll try to animate more !!!
400 β iβll FINALLY come out to my irl friends (like, the ones in OTHER friend groups, friends in my current friend group know.)
420 β start a yt channel w my irl friend (aeryl!!) π₯π₯
450 β i wont kms before/on my birthday!!!!!!!!!
500 β iβll take my vitamins and meds regularly π€―
520 β i wonβt look at old messages anymore!!! so i wont feel sad!!! yay!!!
550 β iβll work on my utau more
600 β iβll try to show more affection to my lovely partners <33
620 β iβll fix my diet!!!!!!!!
650 β iβll stop vomiting frequently
700 β i wont lie to my friends about my βnauseaβ anymore, and iβll actually tell them itβs because i genuinely fear gaining too much weight π
720 β iβll reveal my vent blogβ¦β¦β¦. uh oh 0_o
iβll prob add more goals but not rn im busy.. so uh YEAH, go crazy. tag people, spam comments, whatever else idgaf man
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i hate that if you're suicidal you essentially get threatened to keep quiet and pretend you're okay or they'll send you to something that is basically just jail
i can't tell the truth to the people who "want to help me" i went to a psychiatrist recently and i had to answer a bunch of questions. and i lied because i don't want to get hospitalized
"are you experiencing any suicidal thoughts right now?" yes "not really "
"have you ever attempted?" yes "no"
"do you have a plan for how you would do it?" yes "no"
"do you hurt yourself?" yes "no"
this is stupid. the system isn't meant to help people it's meant to make people shut up and kill themselves quietly without causing a fuss and if they won't do that they get locked up.
Lil nas x coming back during pride month to tell us hes been taking care of his physical and mental health, finishing rehab and getting treatment for bipolar disorder, and telling us that he is excited to not only make new music but also just to live his life???? And during mens mental health awareness month????? Oh i missed him bad
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being suicidal is my normal, i have been suicidal for years. but thatβs not one of those things you can really talk about without people either pushing you to go inpatient or just straight up force you to.
all this does is make it so i canβt be honest with people i should be able to be honest with, medical staff of any kind the most.
suicidal ideation needs to be destigmatised yesterday, we need to allow people to talk about it without fearing for their freedom and rights being violated.
reminder to stop fucking taking mental health terms and applying them to normal human experiences that a lot of people have regardless of their mental health!
stop saying you have a "special interest"/you're "hyperfixating" on something when you just like it a lot!
stop saying you're "overstimulated" when you're just overwhelmed!
stop saying you're "dissociating" when you're just zoning out!
stop saying you're "so OCD" because you like to be clean/organized!
stop saying you're "delusional/delulu" because you hope the person you like might like you back!
stop calling things "traumatizing"/saying you're "traumatized" when you see something that was a just a little weird or scary or uncomfortable and left no real lasting damage on you!
stop calling people/things "psychotic" when you mean violent/homicidal! (people in psychosis aren't inherently dangerous btw)
and most of all!!
stop fucking calling people/things schizo!!!! full stop!!!! there is never a good reason for it!!!! schizophrenics have enough to worry about without hearing you say that shit!!!! fuck dude omg
anyway feel free to add to this if you reblog it :]
Look I know this is nothing new to tumblr users specifically but I still need to say it:
I think we should have sex with friends more often. Not just because some of my friends are real hot and I'm jealous of their partners. But most importantly because it's up to us queer people (especially the poyamorous, ace and aro folk) to challenge the preconceived notions about what normal expressions of sexuality and romantism look like. Because who we are already challenges the deepest roots of the way people think about intimacy (that you're expected to have a single person in your life that is your one favourite person and you want to have sex with that same person and nobody else)
I'm real done with the idea that certain ways of expressing care are only for one person in one's life. I hold my friends' hands, I compliment them and yes, I would 'go further' (interesting that sex is seen universally as something more intimate than let's say kissing. When I can think of multiple people with whom kissing would be peak intimacy)
Also it's a much safer way to explore your sexuality than hooking up with strangers from dating apps :] (No shade if you like that though, it's just. With a friend you at least know them enough to know what to expect when you act a certain way)
Also also we don't need a label like friend with benefits. It's just a friend. The fact that one has sex with said friend shouldn't be any different than a 'bake pies with' friend or 'cosplay together' friend. Why is this one action deserving of a specific phrass? (It's because we put sex on a pedestal as an ultimate intimate act. And it doesn't have to be)
it's up to us all, but especislly those that already don't fit the mold, to carve out our own way of experiencing intimacy.
So yeah, if you want to, fuck a friend for me please and tell ne how it goes
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NOBODY is excusing or supporting abuse when they talk about how narc abuse isnt real. you are making this up in your head.
90% of the time these people ABSOLUTELY preface first that your abuse wasnt okay and when they start talking about how you shouldnt blame a trauma based disorder for the abuse your abuser did you start freaking out. do you realize how pathetic it is to completely ignore when these people say it isnt okay to demonize a disorder people obviously dont choose to have.
you're blaming the narcissism. you're blaming the abuse on the narcissism. you aren't blaming the person for the abuse, you're blaming the disorder they have for their actions, not blaming the person themself.
As it turns out, the "safer parent" wasn't actually safe because they were complicit in the other parent's abuse. Sure, they didn't hit you, but when you got hit, they didn't protect you either and that doesn't make them safe, it makes them an enabler. Being complicit in the face of abuse is a form of abuse.
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Over the last nine years, I've been trying to write a novel about love, fame, and the machine that grinds private experience into public attention. I've given up writing it many, many times. But today, I get to tell you: Hollywood, Ending--my first novel in nine years--is available for preorder now.
It's a story about big stuff--falling in love, living with trauma, navigating the relationship between the authentic self and the performed one--and writing it has often been challenging. But it's also been FUN. After The Fault in Our Stars was published, I kind of forgot how fun writing could be, and this story allowed me to work my way back to true joy in writing, and I'm so grateful for that experience and I really hope you love this book. I am so excited to share it with you.
And yes, you can preorder a signed copy now at http://hollywoodendingbook.com, because I'm signing 82,000 copies of the first printing, because I simply cannot resist the urge to sign books. Hollywood, Ending comes out on September 22nd.
i fear this website will never be ready to acknowledge that children can sexually assault other children
or that the victims of other children have a really hard time working through it because the person who assaulted them was innocent, didn't know it was wrong, and was almost certainly a victim themselves
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