I only ever come on here when I need to unload my feelings somewhere. It’s 10:30 California time. I am home alone. I am sobbing for discernible reason and I can’t stop. I can’t get in touch with my boyfriend. Everyone is asleep on the east coast. Right now I feel hopeless.
My emotions hurt. My heart hurts. I feel like I’m just going through the motions lately. I don’t have the energy to do anything I care about except go to the gym. I feel blank.
I just want to cry it all out so it goes away permanently. But it won’t. Sometimes it feels like it can’t.
I don’t know what the point of this was. None of it made much sense. I’m just tired putting on a face. I needed to let it out somewhere.













