just be cool, man.

cygnus - adult - he/they

i’m bad at making pretty posts but this is my system blog. i’m an adult professionally diagnosed with c-ptsd and a few other disorders. i believe i have OSDD and this is a space for me to be an “alternate” to the self and also talk about my experiences with dissociation and trauma. i follow from my main “self” blog so if you see another username follow you that would be why.

some kind of osdd system - it’s not a “we”, it’s still me, but it’s still different “loadouts”

me / cygnus: he/him i dont know im some kind of manager of the team. im an adult and have always been. i dress frilly and always have. i do most of the chores and stuff and im also the only one who really wants to acknowledge that we’re some kind of plural or record or keep track of it. i also do the job most of the time

idk: she/they not sure of her internal name. the other main character here, out and about when we’re solo and makes a lot of bad self destructive choices. hates the idea of us being a system and will actively fight me internally about it constantly. still drinks and really irritated by being a parent but will still do it. she can also do the job really well.

mica: aer / aers still a young teenager. some kind of trauma holder and doesn’t really come out often now. when aers does aer is super confused and really stressed by the existence of an irl family

nowi: she thinks she’s some kind of ancient ageless goddess and doesn’t really talk well if at all. mostly non-verbal and rarely shows up to pilot

???: i think there’s some sort of persecutor but whatever it’s doing it’s hard to see the edges of this makes sense? i can’t tell if it’s an “alter” or if it’s just my brain self hatred. it feels less autonomous and more malicious than my brain usually does.