@ayyaduselessbi has summoned me from my eternal slumber. I have remembered my roots. Enjoy an angsty fic😝
Ayo sat outside of her home, staring down at her golden neck rings in her hands, the symbol of her duty to Wakanda, her power, her rank, the rank she didn't deserve.
Okoye had trained Ayo, corrected Ayo's form when she was still in training, saved Ayo's life numerous times, Okoye was even the one who helped her get with Aneka.
Ayo swore to herself that she will fight by her general's side, yet here she was, the new general of Wakanda, and she felt as if she didn't deserve it. In her mind she never will. She hadn't even been general for a full day and her relationship was already falling apart.
She and Aneka had fought, and now they were both giving each other distance. Aneka was inside while Ayo stayed outside, underneath the stars.
The argument replayed in her head like a broken record of regret:
Aneka had planned a surprise for Ayo. A special dinner, nothing fancy, but very thoughtful. Aneka had cooked Ayo's favorite meal and even made her favorite dessert. Aneka wanted to show how much she was proud of Ayo. When Ayo walked in, Aneka smiled brightly at her.
"Welcome home, my beloved general." Aneka greeted Ayo warmly.
Ayo froze, but not in the happy surprised kind of way. She stared at the food, at the celebration, then it made her remember.
It made her remember how Queen Ramonda had screamed at Okoye, how Okoye's tears fell, how Queen Ramonda declared that Okoye would no longer be general. It made Ayo remember the look Okoye gave her before she turned to leave, it wasn't a hateful look, Okoye would never hate her daughter, but Ayo felt the guilt stab her heart when Queen Ramonda turned to her and declared her as the next general.
To Ayo, she had just betrayed Okoye. She believed she didn't deserve the position as general, believed she still had a lot to learn, she believed that she didn't EARN the position like Okoye, like her ancestors. The rest of the day passed in a blur, drills, meetings with elders, discussing about her new position, already planning the ceremony.
Aneka snapped Ayo out of her train of thoughts when she suddenly grabbed Ayo's arm out of concern.
"Beloved? What's wrong?" Aneka asked gently.
Ayo just stared at her, breathing heavily. Then she spoke.
"Why would I want to celebrate this?" Ayo asked Aneka sharply.
Aneka was taken aback "Wh-what do you mean? I just-" Aneka tried to say but Ayo cut her off.
"What made you think that I wanted to celebrate the I REPLACED my general just because she failed her duty ONCE." Ayo asked Aneka, staring down at her.
"Ayo, I'm sorry, but let's sit down and tal-"
"How could I talk to you about it?! You wouldn't know a THING about how I feel-" That's when Ayo realized what she was saying.
"Ayo, I'm your wife, or were you so focused on your guilt that you forgot that as well..." Aneka shot back, crossing her arms defensively.
Ayo stayed silent, smart move.
Aneka just frowns at her and starts arranging the table, putting the meal she cooked and the dessert she baked into the fridge.
"If you want to wallow in your guilt and sorrow, do it outside." Aneka had said to Ayo as she began to wash the dishes, her back towards her wife. Ayo wanted to reach out to her wife, to apologize, but her guilt and shame made her retreat, outside.
Now Ayo sat outside on the porch, regretting talking to Aneka that way.
Ayo already started about ways on how to make it up to Aneka when the front door suddenly opened. Ayo immediately stood and saw Aneka standing there in the doorway, dressed as if she was heading out.
"I will be visiting my parents, don't wait for me." Aneka coldly said to her wife.
Ayo began to panic, she knew that tone. That was Aneka's "test me and find out" voice. Ayo immediately knew that if Aneka truly left, she'd never forgive herself. So as Aneka took a step towards the porch steps, Ayo immediately stood in front of her, blocking her path. Aneka narrowed her eyes up at her.
"Step aside, lieutenant." Aneka told Ayo.
Lieutenant, that was her old rank. The rank she held for years, but now she didn't feel the honor she usually felt when addressed with that title.
"What's wrong? Don't you hate being general? Don't you hate your wife for just wanting to congratulate you?" Aneka taunted, but she stopped talking because she did not want to sound as if she was guilt tripping Ayo.
"I don't hate you, my lo-" Ayo started to explain but Aneka cut her off.
"I need space, Ayo." Aneka said as she tried stepping around Ayo but that just caused Ayo to grab Aneka's wrist, desperate.
To Aneka's surprise, Ayo suddenly sank to her knees and CLUNG to Aneka, refusing to let go.
"I'm so sorry, my love. Please forgive me. I was wrong for talking to you like that, I never should have taken you for granted." Ayo said as she clung to Aneka. Ayo had her arms wrapped securely around Aneka's waist. Despite Aneka trying to break free from her wife's iron grip, Ayo held her, and kept going.
"Aneka... Don't go. Talk to me, yell at me if you desire but don't leave me..." Ayo pleaded to her wife.
Aneka became frozen. Never has she heard Ayo beg this hard before. To be honest, Aneka found it adorable how one of Wakanda's mightiest warriors is currently kneeling in front of her and begging her not to leave.
Several people had passed by, their eyes locked on the scene. Their general clinging to her wife as if they were getting a divorce.
Aneka sighed and she eventually patted Ayo's head and said
"Fine, let's go inside and talk..." Aneka said.
Ayo looked up at Aneka and Aneka almost forgave Ayo right then and there. The face Ayo made whenever she looked at Aneka for forgiveness has always been cute to Aneka.
Ayo stood up and picked Aneka up bridal style. Ayo carried her wife inside despite Aneka still being annoyed with her.
Ayo sat Aneka down on the couch, kneeling in front of her, again. Ayo took Aneka's hands in hers.
"Listen, my beloved. I know that you're-" Aneka began.
"I'm sorry." Ayo cut her off.
"I'm sorry for not appreciating you earlier. I was so immersed in my own insecurities of not being worthy enough to be general that it made me snap at you. It made me say things that were unnecessary and ridiculous. Please, Aneka... Forgive me." Ayo begged as she pressed her forehead against Aneka's thigh.
Aneka was touched. She thought about it for a bit, but she eventually wrapped her arms around Ayo's head and hugged her tightly. Aneka sighed and said
"Fine, I forgive you... My beloved general." Aneka begrudgingly said. Ayo smiled at that.
"You're still sleeping on the couch though." Aneka added.
Ayo immediately sighed in defeat.
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First fic in a while... It's been a long time since I made a fic so I'm pretty rusty. If you guys have any fanfiction ideas or anything about Ayo and Aneka then just drop it in the comments.
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