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I’m still alive and I’m proud of it.

These days ive made up my mind and im trying again.

At times I do lose hope but I’m gonna try to keep going.

Curing Salt

I saw a scissors nearby.

Grabbed it and tried to cut my hand infront of them.

I know I shouldn’t have done it

I know I threatened them

But I just could not think clearly.

I heard voices telling me “NOW! I WANNA CUT NOW!”

I was overloaded couldn’t handle the yelling from my family I panicked

Thankfully no one including myself was hurt

and I was feeling like that for a long time. Then I called my mum who isn’t a christan but supports my faith.

She said” if you think you are worthless what does god think of you” I took a moment and said

“I think I’m worthy in gods eyes because god made me and gave his only son on the cross to die for me out of love” then she said” that’s your answer” it made me realise it doesn’t matter if I’m worthy in humans eyes but gods eyes

I was suicidal during weekend but today I decided if I’m worthy in gods eyes I shouldn’t give up

1. Please make my FP love me instead of her husband

2. Please make me normal.