for example (tw ed thoughts?):

ED brain: “new plan!! Restrict every day to X calories!!”

me: “k n then what”

ED brain:: “lose a ton of weight and get super sickly-skinny looking!!”

me: “k n then what”

ED brain: “then everyone will pay attention to you, validate your illness!!”

me: “k n then what”

ED brain: “you get to go bask in the comfort of tx where your identity as an Anorexic is constantly reinforced and you feel secure and cared for”

me: “k n then what”

ED brain: “…you gain a ton of weight and get discharged and are fat and vulnerable again.”

also me: “k n then what”

ED brain (petulantly) : “… shut up”

You know when you’re at a restaurant, it’s past closing time and you ask your server, “Are we keeping you here?” And then the server politely recipes, “Oh no, it’s ok.”

Well it’s not ok at all, but your server has to say that it is. It’s actually incredibly rude of you to do that.